TLDR: I am losing my apartment because my roommates decided to move out without notifying me. Thankfully, I will not be homeless, I do have a place to stay. However, I will be hit with many large expenses. I am in need of help financially. I hate asking, but if you can donate anything to help me make it through this, it would be greatly appreciated. Links are at the bottom of the journal.

The timing of recent events couldn't be worse. I was going to post about this earlier, but with the sudden and terrible passing of  spottedsqueak, I didn't feel it was appropriate.

I didn't personally know Forest, but I am very close to many who did. Seeing all my friends in absolute agony has been terrible, and I didn't want to add to that suffering with my problems. Forest was an artist I always wanted to meet, someone who meant the world to people I love and respect. I probably could have easily talked to him, got to know him, befriended him, sense he was so commonly intersecting with my circle of friends, but I never did. I was too shy to reach out, too stuck in my own dumb anxieties to talk to him. Now I never will. I'm going to regret that for the rest of my days. The joy he brought others through his art and kindness cannot be understated. His loss has been devastating, and our community will feel it for a long time to come.

The day I came home from work, and received this news, was the same day I received some other bad news: My roommates were not renewing our lease, and were moving out suddenly. I was going to be homeless.

Living here with my roommates has been utter agony. I won't go into too much detail, as a lot of it is personal drama, but to summarize, it's been like taking care of 2 irresponsible children. Two filthy, non-communicative, and passive aggressive children.

The cat is a goblin child, so he's like 3 cats in one, but he's also a cat, so legally he's allowed.

Anyway point is: My roommates decided that they wanted to move out because they couldn't deal with me anymore. Supposedly I was too stressful to live with.

They told me a few months ago that they were thinking about moving out, but nothing was set in stone. One of my roommates has a very level-headed, smart brother, who is very financially savvy and forward thinking. He agreed with me that this would be a terrible idea. My roommates would not listen to me, but they would listen to him. Multiple times, my roommates said that he was right, and that they would be continuing our lease. Multiple times they talked about how right he was, and that it would be a good idea to stick it out for at least another year before moving out.

What they did not tell me, is that they changed their minds again. They still proceeded as if they were going to be moving out, and not renew our lease.

They even called our landlord and told him that they were planning on not renewing, maybe about a month ago, without my consent.

Issue is: I'm on the lease. All of us have to consent to have our lease non-renewed. What they've done might be illegal.

So cut to three days ago, I come home, find out a beloved member of our community is dead, AND that I'm no longer going to have a place to stay because my roommates are moving out THIS WEEKEND. (IE: Today)

My brain enters poopoo panic hyperstress mode, and sense then I've been scrambling to make sure I'm not completely fucked over by this.

Now, in a way, it is fortunate that I waited a few days. It's good that I got all of my ducks in a row before making a journal about this, because it has given me time to access the situation, and get all of my facts together. I've been able to talk with my landlord and several friends who understand renting/reator stuff better than I. Thankfully, there is a silver lining to this situation:

My landlord is just as upset over this as I am, upset that my roommates have so thoroughly failed to communicate properly to such a irresponsible degree. He is working with me to arrange it so that I can stay at my current apartment for another month until another place to live becomes available. There is a Flat in our complex that will be ready by the end of October, and he is offering to me at a discounted rate. I've been a good tenant with no problems, so he likes me quite a lot and wants to keep me here if possible. He's throwing me a massive bone with that offer, and I think I'm going to take him up on it.

Now, as a result of all of this, I'm going to be hit with a LOT of expenses. Unfortunately, as I just recently started my new job, I do not have nearly enough savings to cover these costs. I hate asking for help, I hate asking for donations when I can't really provide anything in return, I do not like bothering all of you wonderful people for aid, but... I-I really need some help.

I WILL be able to cover the cost of the extra month of rent, because believe it or not, my Dad is doing the right thing and helping me with that. When he kicked me out before the pandemic and moved to Florida, he was clearly having a very severe midlife crisis. Being in Florida has sobered him on what is really important in life, and he wants to return to PA so he can be close to family and friends. We have a shockingly healthy relationship that brings me great joy. Letting go of my hatred for him has been incredibly healing, and he's helping make things right. So in terms of that big expense, I will be okay. But unfortunately, there are many other expenses that I will need help with.

Costs I'll need help with/Things I can put y'alls kind donations towards:
• The new deposit on the new apartment
• A new internet connection/account
• PECO Electricity (This is the main utility I have to pay here at this apartment, everything else is covered rather generously.)
• Cleaning supplies so I can TRY to tidy this place up because oh god we really don't even have a vacuum here its awful holy shit
• Basic living supplies such as dishes, bath towels, stuff like that
• I'm also being hit with my 6 month car insurance premium next month so that's great timing
• Oh god that's right my crappy phone is dying too so that's fun oogh
• I'm very tired I can't brain I'm probably forgetting something important???

Basically: There's a lot of shit that I could use some help with. I don't think I'm going to be homeless thanks to the offer from my landlord, and the help from my Dad. But things ARE going to be very, VERY rough and expensive for a bit. I really need a little help, but I do think that ultimately, once I push past this hard point, my life can start for the better. I've felt so miserable here these last 2 years, and I've been stuck in bad situation after bad situation for far too long. I'm finally, FINALLY seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. The deaths in our community, and the ones in my personal life, have really motivated me to not miss anything anymore. I can't wallow in this depression anymore, in this inactivity. I want to be present again, I want to be here with everyone, because I don't want to miss anything, anyone, ever again. I want to go to cons again, draw art for people, make an impact for the better in people's lives. I'm so close to getting there, so close to realizing dreams and Ideas I've had for 15+ years. I just have to get past this final push, this final bramble in the way of that light. I can FEEL how close I am, I can FEEL like I'm almost there. I don't want to fail before I finally get there. If you can help me make it, that would mean the world to me. I really appreciate every single one of you, and the constant patience and understanding you give me. I literally would not be alive if it were not for this community. Thank you so much for everything.

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As you can imagine, all of this has put the whole gallery restructuring thing on pause. I have not forgotten about it though. Sorry for the delay...

Thank you all again so very much, I hope to have good news soon. <3