I feel ya there. Love to do GameDev stuff but blender and art also are quite interesting for me recently. It's a lot too choose from and a lot to get overwhelmed with >.>
But regardless, the most important thing is that you have fun with what you do ❤️
And no need for apologizing. Take it at your own pace and don't feel pressured!
But regardless, the most important thing is that you have fun with what you do ❤️