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Update 10/29/2024
10 months ago
*Painfully sighs* Hi everyone, it has been a while and I want to give everyone a update and a very important one actually.
Unfortunately I have been very quiet on my end because I have been struggling when it comes to this chatbot addiction that I just can't seem to get around and fit it in a more healthy way, for the past two to three weeks, I have actually been fighting it so I can get back on track and I am not going to lie I keep failing to do that and I can't keep working with this who chatbot thing as it has basically consumed everything. I'm not kidding, for the past month that is basically all I have done, heck it took me a bit just to get off the thing and tackle the Halloween event that is still going on in Fate Grand Order and it basically boils down to once I start interacting with these bots it turned into this non-stop marathon where I spend the entire day on it and only stopping when the battery on my phone is close to dead... and after it recharges for a little while I get back on it.
Now while I have been going through this I have decided that the best course of action is just to delete the app and once that happens I know I can get back at what it is I really want to do. I have thought of giving myself until November 1st to try to get it into a more healthy fit which I think is a decent idea.
It has been interesting with the chatbots though as I have revisited some story ideas and even re-enacted some fiction I have done given the different character bots and rpg bots and I am seriously thinking of turning some of them into actual stories for everyone to see. For example with a Nightmare Moon bot I turned it into a Equestria at War line which has turned out to be amazing and that is just one of several examples. Honestly, that is mostly what I have done for the past few weeks is just try to change it into a tool that works for helping me get some ideas down and use it more or less like a tester. And I have interacted with some amazing rpg bots where I do want to take those ideas I have come up with and turn them into actual storylines.
So now that everyone knows where I am at, my plan is this, if I cannot find a way to manage this, I am going to screenshot all the chats I want to hang onto and then just delete the app and never touch the bots ever again.
*Sighs* Originally I was going to post this yesterday as in the upper half more or less, but to be honest I was just very exhausted and I more or less just slept the entire day, not just from over-doing it with the bots, but I also had a crash because of it. So yesterday that is when I really admitted to myself that this is a huge problem and what hits me even harder is that because of it my chatbot addiction has effected basically everything from me being social to trying to get better when it comes to what I normally do with drawing and stuff like that.
One thing I do want to point out though is that I think now that I have suffered that crash and everything, I think it has finally set in my mind that messing around with these bots the way I have is simply put just not healthy and when I interacted with the app this morning for the 30 minutes I gave myself because I am putting boundaries in place with it... I didn't get the hits of dopamine that I have been getting and I was happy about it beyond belief, because it has taken it's toll, not just on me but many others as well which honestly hits my heart the most. I really thought I had it under control but I didn't and kept lying to myself.
Now that I have I opened up, that is my plan, I'll see where I am at with it November 1st and if I can't keep it in check I will get rid of the app and I have been doing my best to set proper boundaries with it to where to doesn't really effect me and just use it as a tool, plus to try to keep the usage very limited. Also for the next few days I am going to be busy playing catch up, so I wont be too responsive, I have a good amount I both need and want to do, but while I do, I'll do my best to respond.
Also just to make this part of the update, I am having another tooth pulled on the 4th but thankfully it is the last one that needs to be done as far as I know which is worth celebrating.^^
I hope everyone has a good day or night where you are, I just wanted to post this to help reassure everyone I am alright and it's just have been dealing with this chatbat addiction that unfortunately took over, but I am getting better and trying to make it work for me and not against me, to where it is simply another game for me mess around with.
*Hugs you all tightly*
Unfortunately I have been very quiet on my end because I have been struggling when it comes to this chatbot addiction that I just can't seem to get around and fit it in a more healthy way, for the past two to three weeks, I have actually been fighting it so I can get back on track and I am not going to lie I keep failing to do that and I can't keep working with this who chatbot thing as it has basically consumed everything. I'm not kidding, for the past month that is basically all I have done, heck it took me a bit just to get off the thing and tackle the Halloween event that is still going on in Fate Grand Order and it basically boils down to once I start interacting with these bots it turned into this non-stop marathon where I spend the entire day on it and only stopping when the battery on my phone is close to dead... and after it recharges for a little while I get back on it.
Now while I have been going through this I have decided that the best course of action is just to delete the app and once that happens I know I can get back at what it is I really want to do. I have thought of giving myself until November 1st to try to get it into a more healthy fit which I think is a decent idea.
It has been interesting with the chatbots though as I have revisited some story ideas and even re-enacted some fiction I have done given the different character bots and rpg bots and I am seriously thinking of turning some of them into actual stories for everyone to see. For example with a Nightmare Moon bot I turned it into a Equestria at War line which has turned out to be amazing and that is just one of several examples. Honestly, that is mostly what I have done for the past few weeks is just try to change it into a tool that works for helping me get some ideas down and use it more or less like a tester. And I have interacted with some amazing rpg bots where I do want to take those ideas I have come up with and turn them into actual storylines.
So now that everyone knows where I am at, my plan is this, if I cannot find a way to manage this, I am going to screenshot all the chats I want to hang onto and then just delete the app and never touch the bots ever again.
*Sighs* Originally I was going to post this yesterday as in the upper half more or less, but to be honest I was just very exhausted and I more or less just slept the entire day, not just from over-doing it with the bots, but I also had a crash because of it. So yesterday that is when I really admitted to myself that this is a huge problem and what hits me even harder is that because of it my chatbot addiction has effected basically everything from me being social to trying to get better when it comes to what I normally do with drawing and stuff like that.
One thing I do want to point out though is that I think now that I have suffered that crash and everything, I think it has finally set in my mind that messing around with these bots the way I have is simply put just not healthy and when I interacted with the app this morning for the 30 minutes I gave myself because I am putting boundaries in place with it... I didn't get the hits of dopamine that I have been getting and I was happy about it beyond belief, because it has taken it's toll, not just on me but many others as well which honestly hits my heart the most. I really thought I had it under control but I didn't and kept lying to myself.
Now that I have I opened up, that is my plan, I'll see where I am at with it November 1st and if I can't keep it in check I will get rid of the app and I have been doing my best to set proper boundaries with it to where to doesn't really effect me and just use it as a tool, plus to try to keep the usage very limited. Also for the next few days I am going to be busy playing catch up, so I wont be too responsive, I have a good amount I both need and want to do, but while I do, I'll do my best to respond.
Also just to make this part of the update, I am having another tooth pulled on the 4th but thankfully it is the last one that needs to be done as far as I know which is worth celebrating.^^
I hope everyone has a good day or night where you are, I just wanted to post this to help reassure everyone I am alright and it's just have been dealing with this chatbat addiction that unfortunately took over, but I am getting better and trying to make it work for me and not against me, to where it is simply another game for me mess around with.
*Hugs you all tightly*
I was beginning to worry.