the last few weeks been a insane amount of panic and paranoia for me because of how much i felt I was losing spaces to feel safe to feel like myself and not feel like im struggle to post places. after the situation going down, and while I know my stuff was safe with nothing really following down those rules. I was too scared of my account getting hit by some random rule out of no where or so vague that ill get hit anyways. I didnt feel trusted and I didnt want to lose 15 years of history being a furry and where ive been.

So I deleted all of artwork I had uploaded from commissions that was abdl related. no matter what it was. Just in case. sure it was of panic. it was of fear. and i could have been safe in the future but i couldnt tell seeing artists and friends left and right being affected over and over. but the post recently, what feels genuine apology and actually responses from people, the temporary removal of a rule and bans and suspension lifted on people, it feels like yea things are ok, maybe things will be hopeful and safe again. but now i have to deal with the situation of re uploading All commissions I paid for again. The worst part is re uploading my memorial piece, im still upset I had to remove it out of panic and fear yea. and there is nothing to do about it. but im waiting a few weeks but a heads up for a lot of work i had over the years re uploaded, and a lot of the descriptions are going to be very simplified because i lost all of the writing I did for each piece. its fine. at least ill have a back again.

I want to be hopeful and be a place I feel safe to be who i am in many ways.

~Taya Erindra