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Wishing you all a happy new year
8 months ago
Hey everyone. 2024 ends today and I just want to say, I hope the new year brings happier times with it, for everyone out there as well as myself.
This was by a long shot the worst year of my life. I don't say that lightly, I've been truly miserable for most of the year and still am. I remember posting on my (now defunct) twitter on January 1st about how "2024's gonna be good!" and wow did that fucking backfire. I wasn't doing well back then but it was nice to have hope that things would get better - and just when they seemed like they would, everything crumbled beneath me. I wish I could be as hopeful going into 2025 as I was last time, but the events of this year broke me on a level I'm not sure how I'll ever recover from... but I'll keep trying, of course. Who knows, hopefully some day I do.
2024 was full of very low points, but joining this site was not one of them. If anything, creating this account, this character, and writing three chapters of his story, that was the rare occasion where I had strength. Strength to do the things I'd wanted to do, and through that I even made a couple friends, who did make life a little easier and I'm so thankful for. The reception to those stories blew me away too, but now the longer I go on without continuing them (I still haven't started writing Ch.4, sorry...), the more I feel this pressure to deliver on people's expectations, even if I know that's all in my head.
I wanted to finish the story this year, but instead I decided to try and finish another long overdue project of mine by December. It's a massive undertaking, I made good progress on it but even that got thwarted by me deciding to give Marvel Rivals a try and suddenly becoming insanely addicted to it. Oh well. At least I'm having fun? Between that game, good times with friends, and my sports team doing very well, I've had enough distractions to feel okay most of the time. Still, though, I always end up feeling depressed and empty the moment those distractions go away.
I just want to be happy again... It won't happen overnight, I know. But I hope that 2025 can bring better times my way – I wanna say it couldn't possibly get worse than 2024, but knowing life, it very much could. Because for as bad as things have been for me this year, I know a lot of people go through worse. It can always get worse.
But it can also always get better. Let's just hope things do get better. It's hard to have hope in bleak times, but hope is what keeps us going, and I'm still going. And so are all of you. We all have hope.
Happy new year's.
This was by a long shot the worst year of my life. I don't say that lightly, I've been truly miserable for most of the year and still am. I remember posting on my (now defunct) twitter on January 1st about how "2024's gonna be good!" and wow did that fucking backfire. I wasn't doing well back then but it was nice to have hope that things would get better - and just when they seemed like they would, everything crumbled beneath me. I wish I could be as hopeful going into 2025 as I was last time, but the events of this year broke me on a level I'm not sure how I'll ever recover from... but I'll keep trying, of course. Who knows, hopefully some day I do.
2024 was full of very low points, but joining this site was not one of them. If anything, creating this account, this character, and writing three chapters of his story, that was the rare occasion where I had strength. Strength to do the things I'd wanted to do, and through that I even made a couple friends, who did make life a little easier and I'm so thankful for. The reception to those stories blew me away too, but now the longer I go on without continuing them (I still haven't started writing Ch.4, sorry...), the more I feel this pressure to deliver on people's expectations, even if I know that's all in my head.
I wanted to finish the story this year, but instead I decided to try and finish another long overdue project of mine by December. It's a massive undertaking, I made good progress on it but even that got thwarted by me deciding to give Marvel Rivals a try and suddenly becoming insanely addicted to it. Oh well. At least I'm having fun? Between that game, good times with friends, and my sports team doing very well, I've had enough distractions to feel okay most of the time. Still, though, I always end up feeling depressed and empty the moment those distractions go away.
I just want to be happy again... It won't happen overnight, I know. But I hope that 2025 can bring better times my way – I wanna say it couldn't possibly get worse than 2024, but knowing life, it very much could. Because for as bad as things have been for me this year, I know a lot of people go through worse. It can always get worse.
But it can also always get better. Let's just hope things do get better. It's hard to have hope in bleak times, but hope is what keeps us going, and I'm still going. And so are all of you. We all have hope.
Happy new year's.
Hope is something we all need to hold on to, and I'm going to hold on to it hard this year.