... is to be more self-indulgent and greedy >:D

I feel like one of my worst personality traits is I'm way too self-conscious of what people think of me, and that I try way too hard to go out of my way to make sure everyone's happy, or make people like me. It gets to the point where I end up burnt out and start resenting people I shouldn't be, and making others uncomfortable. Many times I'll be like "omg hi I like you let me write for you" and it sorta snowballs into a mess lol.

Truthfully, that's why I haven't been updating a few CYOA's in a while. I like writing, and the people who've commissioned me have been nothing short of outstanding, patient, wonderful people, but I'm just feeling burnt out. I'm not happy with my quality of writing anymore, and it makes me sad to say it but I think I need to go on a hiatus for commissioned/owed work. I would like to return to it eventually, but for now I think I need a break.

Right now, I'm motivated to trying to establish my own sorta personal 'world.' I have a few characters and oc's I wanna try expanding on (teehee). I want to try setting up pairings and interactions, see how believable I can make my characters feel, and hopefully inspire others just like how I've been inspired to do the same from a few close friends.

Alas my financial situation isn't really the best atm so I dunno how well I'll be able to walk the walk. I'm sorta hedging all bets on this job opportunity I have coming up. Fingers crossed!