It's Valentine's day and I hope everyone is having a great day with loved ones & significant others!! ❤️

I don't have anyone special to me I can celebrate with, & this isn't a cry for attention, I just want to talk and think out loud

In a vacuum I don't care that I'm alone & single today, I'm aroace and I like spending holidays like this with my friends. But everyone else I'm close to has someone special; a spouse or partner or some other kind of significant other, so I'm all by myself this year

A relationship like that is something I'll never be able to experience because of my sexuality/orientation, because any attempt anyone makes to approach with affection just irritates me, because I can't even make new friends due to trauma and trust issues, and the distress and frustration and sadness all comes to the surface on romantic holidays and anniversaries and engagements

I have tried, I've dated and tried to be romantic towards others but it isn't a feeling I'm able to comprehend, it just becomes frustrating at best. Sex is even worse, I know I commission a lot of porn on here but in real life I don't have sex drive, and it just becomes a stressor when people come on to me or try to do dirty talk

I'm proud of my asexuality, but it does get lonely on days like today and on other romantic occasions where everyone else is spending time with significant others

I'll end this by saying please let your ace friends know they are appreciated and loved 💞 and enjoy the rest of the day