Like seriously I just don't know what to do. No matter what I *do* it's never enough. I'm in a foreign country, I don't have a stable income and I've no place to go. I went on a job hunt and got something crappy but at least it was a start. Then she said I **must** get a degree to get residence. Even though you get residence by studying for at least 6 years, where as job will get me one in 3 years. Also uni require *money*, whereas job **provides**. "I'll pay for university you have no choice" Later on now there's strikes for 5 months already, there's no classes, she's mad that I am homestuck and says I have to go find a job. Yet I can't hope for anything sustainable given uncertainty for how long I would be able to stick around there, part-time or small gigs just won't cut it. She destroying me and herself without her realizing it, or putting blame on me for it. On the "bright" side, she got a dog that also needs money to live, despite me saying how there's not much money around rn, it's a rather reckless decision to make. Do **not** get a dog. Completely ignored and one day she just came with it. Every time she complains about how "expensive" I eat, yet the other day she'd tell how I eat nothing at all. Truth be told I don't eat much. Something proper once per day maybe twice, rest is snacks. Rarely exceeding 8 euro a day

I've done a few impulsive things practically in panic, however now I'm spending most of the time working on things for a story I have. I never knew how to flesh it out. Maybe I'll do illustrated book, maybe sort of a 3D game, I don't bloody know. I'm just working on it because I feel like time is running out and I better have something to shoot with and hope for the best