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5 months ago
Just a little update on the situation that's been happening for the last few years. I can't say I'm well. With all that's been happening during and since the pandemic, several important things that gave me support have broken away, and in consequence other things have finally caught up to me. I'm working through them one day after another, but it's hard and tbh I'm not entirely sure what the end goal is.
Drawing wise, I don't think I'll get into it again. I'm just too disappointed in my output after all these years. As someone who has big difficulties connecting normally to people, communicating back and forth through drawings, even if cringy, was meaningful. During the early 2000s and in the deviantART community, it just worked naturally, and so I never questioned that. But times changed, and continuing to wave uncanny scribbles around which seemed to be getting markedly worse, and hoping that some friend or mutual would take pity and react was, to put it as mildly as possible, maladaptive. I haven't had a graphics program installed in years at this point. It's sad but freeing. Still I'm happy to know that several beautiful artists I admire were inspired by my stuff from the dA time and before. I've also seen people repost gifts and commissions from that time occasionally, which they still enjoy. That made it all worth it.
Thank you for checking this out, and much love.
Drawing wise, I don't think I'll get into it again. I'm just too disappointed in my output after all these years. As someone who has big difficulties connecting normally to people, communicating back and forth through drawings, even if cringy, was meaningful. During the early 2000s and in the deviantART community, it just worked naturally, and so I never questioned that. But times changed, and continuing to wave uncanny scribbles around which seemed to be getting markedly worse, and hoping that some friend or mutual would take pity and react was, to put it as mildly as possible, maladaptive. I haven't had a graphics program installed in years at this point. It's sad but freeing. Still I'm happy to know that several beautiful artists I admire were inspired by my stuff from the dA time and before. I've also seen people repost gifts and commissions from that time occasionally, which they still enjoy. That made it all worth it.
Thank you for checking this out, and much love.
Erst vor einigen Tagen habe ich wieder durch deine Galerie geblättert und einfach Freude gehabt an deiner ganzen Lore, den Charakteren und den Bildern, und ich bin dir immer noch sehr dankbar dafür, dass du alles das hier geteilt hast :)
Ich hoffe, dass bessere Zeiten für dich kommen werden und wünsche dir alles gute!
Thank you for sharing, I've missed your posts and wondered what happened! Knowing how life and our paths change in unexpected ways, it’s important to prioritize what's right for you. Whatever you choose to do moving forward, I hope you find some happiness :) There are definitely some of us who miss the good old days and the energy we all shared. Hope you have an amazing rest of your week!
~Tiv
Missing things that once were so normal that we never would have thought they would one day go away, is very painful. CoViD times put this into overdrive. And current news don't help either. Let us face this together, day by day, year by year.
And while I know that creating art sometimes can feel like a burden, while it should bring relief, please let me say that your work has brought me so much joy through the years, and if you pick up pencil or stylus one day again, I know it will continue to do so.
I love you.