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5 months ago
I'm doing a lot of processing right now, and things are very emotional. Just this last week, I had to file a report on someone at work for making improper comments to me. The day after, I was waiting for my ride after getting a new modem, and a man got out of his car and started filming me. I was so scared! I hate feeling like a victim, but I'm really scared of the man at work coming back angry, or maybe even with a weapon. I'm trying to reach out to new people and stay busy and find community so that this scary thing isn't all I think about.
My partner recently made me a unicorn head, and we went to Las Vegas Fur Con. I LOVE THIS CON! I created a lovely new outfit, all pink and pretty and very ballet-inspired for my debut as a staff gogo dancer during the night market! I got to be on stage with the DJ and on a riser and prance at my poniest! I've always enjoyed dancing, but this was my first time doing it for an audience. I was SO into it. Unfortunately, we didn't have space to bring Aurelia, but I will definitely have her at the next con! I want to dance more with as her, and I definitely want to take her to a Bimbo Panel someday. I attended one at LVFC and it was the most fun I've had in ages!
I've realized all my hobbies are very interior and introspective: writing, video essays, and research, and that maybe they're all private, at home hobbies in order protect myself when what I've really wanted all along is to do things like burlesque and dance for a crowd... I've always had such a hard time sharing myself in that way, but I want to change that from now on 😤 working as a go-go dancer at LVFC has really opened my eyes. People told me I was great, and even a burlesque organizer came up to me afterward to tell me he loved it. Wow! I was so blushy, and it was literally my FIRST time dancing in front of people! I keep asking myself why am I just now discovering I'm good at this??
I hope I can participate in more events and get myself out there and make new local friends! I've felt so isolated down in the desert where I moved a few years ago. Our only friends in town moved away, so now my partner and I are completely alone! It's so hard. I want to keep writing of course, it's my calling, but I also want to balance it by getting out of the house and being around people!
Please forgive me for not posting very much! Talk to you later!
My partner recently made me a unicorn head, and we went to Las Vegas Fur Con. I LOVE THIS CON! I created a lovely new outfit, all pink and pretty and very ballet-inspired for my debut as a staff gogo dancer during the night market! I got to be on stage with the DJ and on a riser and prance at my poniest! I've always enjoyed dancing, but this was my first time doing it for an audience. I was SO into it. Unfortunately, we didn't have space to bring Aurelia, but I will definitely have her at the next con! I want to dance more with as her, and I definitely want to take her to a Bimbo Panel someday. I attended one at LVFC and it was the most fun I've had in ages!
I've realized all my hobbies are very interior and introspective: writing, video essays, and research, and that maybe they're all private, at home hobbies in order protect myself when what I've really wanted all along is to do things like burlesque and dance for a crowd... I've always had such a hard time sharing myself in that way, but I want to change that from now on 😤 working as a go-go dancer at LVFC has really opened my eyes. People told me I was great, and even a burlesque organizer came up to me afterward to tell me he loved it. Wow! I was so blushy, and it was literally my FIRST time dancing in front of people! I keep asking myself why am I just now discovering I'm good at this??
I hope I can participate in more events and get myself out there and make new local friends! I've felt so isolated down in the desert where I moved a few years ago. Our only friends in town moved away, so now my partner and I are completely alone! It's so hard. I want to keep writing of course, it's my calling, but I also want to balance it by getting out of the house and being around people!
Please forgive me for not posting very much! Talk to you later!
