Should I quit drawing?
6 months ago
*Scratches snoot, whipping out a pencil*
Hey.
Not particularly a vent per-say. Just asking a question in the most genuine, honest way.
Should I quit drawing, and stop art?
I know someone might say "you can just take a break / go on hiatus instead", but what's the point in saying that if I haven't drawn anything new in nearly 4 months? I haven't drawn at all, I haven't sketched or doodled, and I feel like my drive to draw is completely gone. Whenever I post new stuff, I never get the engagement I hoped to receive such as ideas or comments. I'm at a stalemate on what I should do next. I feel like people look at my art to say "oh, specific niche" and then just move on with their day. I do want to experiment more, but nothing really brings me the same happiness as what I usually draw. Lately? I haven't been feeling that energy or happiness. Especially with the Cavernomatosis I have in my brain, grandmom losing her fight to cancer, drama happening within the household with Grandad's friends, and well.. Life just hitting. Hitting so unbelievably hard that I feel like I'll never really enjoy stuff like art or music ever again.
I'm curious on what you guys think. I doubt anyone will even read this, especially the people with better things going on in their lives, but any answer (preferably yes or no with reasoning) would be very nice to hear. I don't know if this community really wants me around, and I don't know if the stuff I like or do is significant to anyone here. I mostly drew to put smiles on faces, and lately it feels like I haven't been doing that. I'm sure there's better artists that already draw the stuff I like but more consistently and better than me with better characters, so I wouldn't be too big of a loss.
Not particularly a vent per-say. Just asking a question in the most genuine, honest way.
Should I quit drawing, and stop art?
I know someone might say "you can just take a break / go on hiatus instead", but what's the point in saying that if I haven't drawn anything new in nearly 4 months? I haven't drawn at all, I haven't sketched or doodled, and I feel like my drive to draw is completely gone. Whenever I post new stuff, I never get the engagement I hoped to receive such as ideas or comments. I'm at a stalemate on what I should do next. I feel like people look at my art to say "oh, specific niche" and then just move on with their day. I do want to experiment more, but nothing really brings me the same happiness as what I usually draw. Lately? I haven't been feeling that energy or happiness. Especially with the Cavernomatosis I have in my brain, grandmom losing her fight to cancer, drama happening within the household with Grandad's friends, and well.. Life just hitting. Hitting so unbelievably hard that I feel like I'll never really enjoy stuff like art or music ever again.
I'm curious on what you guys think. I doubt anyone will even read this, especially the people with better things going on in their lives, but any answer (preferably yes or no with reasoning) would be very nice to hear. I don't know if this community really wants me around, and I don't know if the stuff I like or do is significant to anyone here. I mostly drew to put smiles on faces, and lately it feels like I haven't been doing that. I'm sure there's better artists that already draw the stuff I like but more consistently and better than me with better characters, so I wouldn't be too big of a loss.
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(Side note but yes, I do plan to draw that sometime)
also, definitely look to see how to use it as a tool to process those emotions? like, that's why art therapy is a thing. there's more to it than getting a smilin' guy to jump out and what's learned diving deeper is what makes a good artist- not what software they use. its all the same to the seasoned paw.
so like, yes. keep drawing. but take some time to push it away and make yourself believe you're done forever. then go back fresh whenever it calls to you again. you may be surprised what comes about in the empty spaces when you listen to them sing. the echo, echo. echo. we'll still be here, but remember its for you first, not us. ;3c
you know, its not like, supposed to make you instantly feel better. no therapy works like that. you're supposed to hold onto it and read the emotions later (like a journal) so you can pick up on any patterns in your emotions and/or whats going on in your life so you can work out adjustments to make to better yourself (and there's always at least something to do, you'd be surprised how small, simple things can add up). and that "could be drawing something better" is the same slop-shit the grindset makes the creative thought patterns into- no fun, only labor to feed the algorithm and get view number to go up. the nasty trippers and grippers that keep those poor unfortunate souls wrapped up in endless stagnation (no time to brainstorm or experiment, can't seek inspiration, must myopically churn out 7000 ychs of dogs i've never met just standing there in order to barely make ends meet). ask me how i know. drawing is as much the not-drawing & letting inspiration find you as it is the actually drawing part. always remember every piece you do is building on what you've already done and that's composing the way you want behind the scenes- there's no such thing as a wasted picture.
anyways, if you need it at all, those 1800s paintings where all the people you could look up in books would look at each other and be holding things in sightlines (almost all those old portrait paintings are like that) were really helpful to learn how to "read" an image in ways others will expect since art builds on art as history builds on history. sometimes things misstep, like the societal addiction to bad news rectangles or a fixation on the perfection of a blank circle rather than the perfection of the best you can do to communicate the pictures and feelings in your head. besides, so much of this stuff is, in technical practice, muscle memory and confidence.
TL;DR: I think you should keep drawing, but I'd understand if you called it quits
The thing is, I don't want to discourage you from ever picking it up again. I really like the stuff you do, especially if it makes you happy. I always worry that someone might close doors to potential happiness in their life because of something I said.
But yeah, art has to be what they call a positive feedback loop; you put stuff on paper, the stuff gives you happy vibes, the happy vibes drive you to do more of the thing that created them, and so on. When that flow of vibes gets interrupted, it can be really frustrating. Like, "This made me happy in the past, it should now," and sometimes it just doesn't. Ask me how I know x3
Express yourself and be yourself.
If others don't get it yet, they don't get it, yet :) it's super simple :) draw for right, not for might.