Hi furry family.

I'm so sad to be writing this journal here, but I need to do it. It's very necessary to inform y'all on what's going on. :(

See here:
https://ibb.co/MyfSBDxH
https://ibb.co/YFQHqjW2

These photos aren’t pretty, but they're real. I am a little embarrassed to show my situation to you but I like to work with evidences. It's more ethical, in my point of view.

Here’s what happened: I had a domestic accident around a week ago now.

In just a moment of
carelessness, I slipped on a wet floor + a crumpled rug at home (and I wasn’t even barefoot), and I fell hard. My patella (previously called kneecap) popped completely out to the side of my leg. It was bad. Honestly, I think it was the worst pain I’ve ever felt in my life.
And now, my kneecap keeps dislocating constantly with the slightest movement. It’s been hell.

I'm wearing just one sock on the pictures, on my injured leg to help me slide my foot across the floor instead of lifting it — I literally can't bend, bump, or move that leg at all without the kneecap slipping out and causing unbearable pain...

My knee/joints in general have always been a bit loose and fragile — lots of similar dislocation cases in my family (it’s a genetic thing). So according to the paramedic, this was bound to happen sooner or later...

I’m super upset about all this, especially because, as some of you guys and my current clients know, my mom’s cancer surgery is this week in another city, and I won’t be able to go anymore. I’m an only child and had spent MONTHS preparing myself to be there for her, to support her through this… but now I just can’t. I’m heartbroken 😭 — and even more so knowing I may have torn ligaments and might never have a “normal” knee again.

I’m completely bedridden, to the point that even trying to wiggle my toes makes my patella start to shift again, and the pain is excruciating. I’m fully dependent on my fiancé, Kyan, for absolutely everything — and I mean everything.
To make it worse, he works two jobs, and while he’ll take a few days off to help, we’ll soon have to figure out something else… yikes. I live in a different city from my parents, and I don’t have siblings.
I can’t even sit up on my own — let alone stand. And don’t even get me started on our bathroom, which has a tall step to enter (who designed this apartment like that???), so that’s a no-go (we tried). Plus, we live on the first floor, so there’s a massive staircase to deal with whenever we need to leave. I have to go down step by step on my butt while Kyan holds my leg up. Yeah. It’s bad. 🥺

We bought this walker thing, and it’s helped a bit — I can slowly move around like a lil old grandpa.... It takes a literal eternity to reach another room, and always with Kyan assisting me. So yeah… everything’s basically fallen apart..

I was seen at the ER, but they couldn’t do much beyond stabilizing me, so I’ll need further exams and to see an orthopedist in 4 weeks. For now, it’s just home care.

⚠️The expenses so far have been super overwhelming — between meds, the walker, leg braces/splints/general aids and more — and I’ll have to open emergency commissions as soon as I can.
⚠️I’ll make a separate post with more info.

I’d be so grateful to anyone willing to grab even a little chibi from me. Every bit helps!

Just pls note since I'm under this situation, I'll finish current batch and only open chibi and YCH slots from now on, for a few months. They're quicker to paint, although still very beautiful and high quality.

I’m using my laptop in bed with my non-display tablet on my belly (she’s the affordable kind). I’m drawing slowly, with lots of patience — it’s the only way right now.

Please, be patient...

That’s life.... I guess. It throws these things at us sometimes. :/ *sigh

⚠️⚠️Also, about the current commission batch:⚠️⚠️

They’re almost all ready, like 99% finished (specially  Dale_Soter and  JackHazardous artworks!!! 99% finished.
My oldest clients, Parabellum and RiftQuest got new artworks last week so I'm still on sketching stage and initial colors!!!)
... and I was just about to send them out — but with the accident, these first few days have been full of pain and complete chaos.
I’ll be organizing myself throughout the week to make sure everything is sent out properly without fail.
I’m so sorry for the delay — I’m really sad and frustrated about all of this. Truly.
I wanna deliver them asap and will do my best given the current circumstances to do it. I promise.

....These have been very hard times. I just don't get it. A lot of bad things have been happening to me and around me lately… frequently.😣

⚠️⚠️🥺I’ve started treatment with anti-inflammatories, painkillers (strong ones, but I'm still in pain)... and lots of ice, but I’ll most likely need surgery soon to repair the ligament — once I get through this initial phase of exams. And everything is just so, so expensive.

If you can, please send prayers or good vibes. Things have been... rough.

Thank you all so much for being here and taking time to read this.

Despite everything, I'm trying to stay kinda positive. It's very hard tho.

Thanks again. :/
Kindest regards,
Millle