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It's hard sometimes
6 months ago
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I generally avoid posting my personal thoughts on here but I don't rly have anywhere else where I can talk about my issues with this level of anonymity & I find that fact comforting.
There are a lot of things I want; I want to make music, I want to write stories, I want to try and enjoy creating again after having that simple joy in creating something beat out of me, but it's hard sometimes; I see others who have been practicing hobbies since childhood, and I see people 5, 6, 7, even 10 years younger than me doing such amazing things and can't help but feel like I missed my chance.
I'm almost 26 and I know that's still young, but all this time I've almost never developed any real passion for anything, I didn't start doing my first hobby until i was 15 because I just. Felt no satisfaction in anything, for most of my life nothing ever brought me joy so I felt no reason to try until I found that one hobby, the one little light that's already faded. Now that I'm doing therapy and taking medication I've gotten much better and for once I feel things but it's also clear now that I've wasted the 25 years I've been alive just rotting away and all I seem to be able to do is flounder and hope to find something that brings me a sense of fulfillment, even my single hobby that I started 10 years ago feels empty now.
I want to make music, I want to write stories, I want to try and enjoy creating again
There are a lot of things I want; I want to make music, I want to write stories, I want to try and enjoy creating again after having that simple joy in creating something beat out of me, but it's hard sometimes; I see others who have been practicing hobbies since childhood, and I see people 5, 6, 7, even 10 years younger than me doing such amazing things and can't help but feel like I missed my chance.
I'm almost 26 and I know that's still young, but all this time I've almost never developed any real passion for anything, I didn't start doing my first hobby until i was 15 because I just. Felt no satisfaction in anything, for most of my life nothing ever brought me joy so I felt no reason to try until I found that one hobby, the one little light that's already faded. Now that I'm doing therapy and taking medication I've gotten much better and for once I feel things but it's also clear now that I've wasted the 25 years I've been alive just rotting away and all I seem to be able to do is flounder and hope to find something that brings me a sense of fulfillment, even my single hobby that I started 10 years ago feels empty now.
I want to make music, I want to write stories, I want to try and enjoy creating again
Now that you have discovered, diagnosed and are treating a big part of what has stifled your ambitions in that past, your future is now full of more potential than ever before!
I'm 32 and I feel the same things you feel, i'm often wishing my parents were more supportive of the arts, I wish I had more natural talent! But at the same time, just tonight I finished a mini painting and building project that has been in my head for years. I also attempted a new painting technique, and have created something I am genuinely proud of.
You still have time.
Try not to fall victim to the sunk cost fallacy, what happened in the past does not take the value away from your future, the bravery to act on your ambitions today will benefit you just as deeply now as it did 10 years ago.
"The best time to start was 10 years ago, the second best time is right now"
I heard about a writer on the radio, she must have been mid 30's, she had never written a book before (though had dabbled in small stories). Her book was selling really well in my country New Zealand. Her moment came when she had just had a baby, who fortunately was a good sleeper, suddenly she had a lot of free time on her hands and that's when she wrote her book :)
I believe in you CanstaCat! Also I hear those meds act like stimulants, which, woohoo~ lol
See ya around ^-^
I believe that you will succeed, and I wish you great success! <3