So I'm keeping the computer and not sending it back. Everything seems to work again. As some may have noticed, I've started up streams again too. I'm trying to get back on the horse but I have that weird feeling that the horse likes to adjust back and fourth so it prevents me from getting on just right. Ya know?

So first order of business is AP wants prints for an upcoming Kickstarter. So I decided on a Plush pinup that may actually end up as the cover to the last issue of plush because it really shows the main character, Carrie, mentally better and getting back to what she does best in a better mindset as Tab, her plushie, helps get her back on her feet. Most of that issue is already drawn up and ready for inking, I just have to fill in the rest to merge both Twisted Existence and Fallen into it.

I also am just a couple of pages away from finishing Plush Issue #3 finally! I feel actually better because Issue #3 was an emotional doozy since I related to that issue alot. Everything from then on is kinda a piece of cake. I'm also getting back into inking Coiled Love pages again. My client for it didn't want me to change the aspect of making it in a physical form since I've begun to work more in digital.

The only thing I worry about is needing money asap and Ben Dunn offered to pay for a graphic novel of his new parody character, Doctor Poo, combining the hilarity of Doctor Who with Disney's Poo character. Granted, he is a great parody character, I'm just worried about taking on more AP projects for money when I haven't completed my own stuff I've wanted to do that may yield me similar finances.

The BAD side is the fact that due to Diamond's bankruptcy, our main distributor, we have to look for many other sources of revenues. We have to find easier ways to get our comics out there for more eyes to see and read and buy. I still want to see our books put into "print on demand" so we don't have to worry about stock anymore and we are not liable for all the troubles that come with shipping. But it really is hard to find ways to make money in a world that makes us transition away from what made us the most money in the first place. No one is able to distribute as well as Diamond did and the new company that bought them has no desire to continue distributing comic books. They just seem to want the logistics and connections they have for their own use.

So we are officially out 20k since Diamond declared bankruptcy. We aren't getting that back and they even "stole" money from our books by selling them to the stores but not reimbursing us for them. Bankruptcy sucks and I hate how they have hurt a small indy company such as us. We could sue but the lawyers and money alone would double, maybe even triple than that we wanted back. We can't afford that. Even I don't know how to "sell myself" so get more people to buy my stuff or be interested in my art. And as is, I can't even afford food.

My husband and I went to a food bank yesterday, and as wonderful as it was to get that much fresh produce, we can't keep all this either. We don't know how to preserve fresh foods. So we ended up giving alot of it to friends we know who could use it after we took what we know we could use. On a good note, our friends also distributed the leftover fresh veggies to neighbors too. It actually made me so happy to see that much food, not gone to waste and helped alot of people and not just us. We need more non perishable food but we really do need to look into growing our own food since prices are too steep.

Anyway, I guess I just needed an outlet to let out my worries and frustrations as of late as well as give people an update on how life is goin since its been a while. I don't get to talk as much as I could need about these things since I'll sound like a broken record. I hope everyone else is doing better in this hard time...