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Anthrocon helping me
3 months ago
It's giving me a good mood to see anthrocon.tv online, I watched a disco concert, a big band jazz session which was amazing! Alkali and Boozy do comedy, and Uncle Kage's Story Hour, and through ti all there's been little looks into the best of what we furries are.
Could it be? This is best furry living? Performing, making, sharing, showing appreciation... through it all, the AV team and volunteers have already visibly been working hard to make the con happen. I love volunteers. They show community affection.
Could it be that it is so simple? Exercise, play, draw furry art, draw and animate the feet and paws and kinks (in a classy way) that I love, just make the things that I love to see in my life and that will center me? Make a schedule, where work and play aren't very disparate, where crafting the things I want could be a way to sell, where funmaking could be my business. Invest effort. Learn everything, your brain has no storage limit unlike an SSD. Learn lifelong. Don't use therapy to pick at your mental scabs, use it as a planner to forecast your steps returning to health.
Get the job you need not for your bills, but to dump your earnings into the house project (i have not talked about this before but it will be the big one), get the job for others not yourself, work for more than your own needs. Work brings goodness.
Teach yourself, absorb information, volunteer, work for profit. Invest mental effort to call and write your friends. Apologize to your friends and invite them to your house, to your thoughts and life. If you cannot spread roots in the concrete of trumpian/supremacist politics you cannot change, grow deep into the soils you can, like friendships, family, sport and physical health. Be ready to spring roots when the concrete finally cracks. Lose weight. Educate yourself about personal nutrition. Leverage the social tools and medical tools you have at your disposal. See your doctor.
You used to be fully you, fully realized as late as July 2023. It is July 2025. You have not been a deadbeat all your life, or for the past 30 or 20 years. You were immature, ignorant of your capability, but the events of moving back home under cowardice MADE YOU FORGET that you used to be an excellent human being only 2 years ago--two! Not five or all your life. Recall the snuggly soft kissy times at your friends' house in Asheville. That was less than one presidency ago. So your fall was not a lifetime long, it was a brief tripping-over-- this means that your climb back up could be as brief as another two years, not another 30! And your climb might be mostly completable in a year or less IF YOU START, but it will take longer to climb the longer you wait.
You see, time and the mind have been distorting your perceptions. You were making soleprints, with physical print proof even in 2022-- you could be doing those again with a little work even this month. Your opportunities are not gone and the forge is quick to heat up, even if it is only faintly warm now. Strike to make the iron hot, start the forge again, craft your life, strike it into shape. You are not at Anthrocon, you missed all your friends you wanted to meet there. Meet your other friends at CFF this year, craft art and goodies for this November, establish a schedule that lets you work at it, then accelerate off that schedule for next AC. Be in position, like a lance of 'Mechs. Be ready to strike at the right range with clear targeting. You must trade time for scheduling now, but if you do this you will begin trading back effort for all the you you were, and want to be, and all that everyone is waiting for you to be.
-Get your work rollin'
-love, all the people who made me who I am today, and me too
Could it be? This is best furry living? Performing, making, sharing, showing appreciation... through it all, the AV team and volunteers have already visibly been working hard to make the con happen. I love volunteers. They show community affection.
Could it be that it is so simple? Exercise, play, draw furry art, draw and animate the feet and paws and kinks (in a classy way) that I love, just make the things that I love to see in my life and that will center me? Make a schedule, where work and play aren't very disparate, where crafting the things I want could be a way to sell, where funmaking could be my business. Invest effort. Learn everything, your brain has no storage limit unlike an SSD. Learn lifelong. Don't use therapy to pick at your mental scabs, use it as a planner to forecast your steps returning to health.
Get the job you need not for your bills, but to dump your earnings into the house project (i have not talked about this before but it will be the big one), get the job for others not yourself, work for more than your own needs. Work brings goodness.
Teach yourself, absorb information, volunteer, work for profit. Invest mental effort to call and write your friends. Apologize to your friends and invite them to your house, to your thoughts and life. If you cannot spread roots in the concrete of trumpian/supremacist politics you cannot change, grow deep into the soils you can, like friendships, family, sport and physical health. Be ready to spring roots when the concrete finally cracks. Lose weight. Educate yourself about personal nutrition. Leverage the social tools and medical tools you have at your disposal. See your doctor.
You used to be fully you, fully realized as late as July 2023. It is July 2025. You have not been a deadbeat all your life, or for the past 30 or 20 years. You were immature, ignorant of your capability, but the events of moving back home under cowardice MADE YOU FORGET that you used to be an excellent human being only 2 years ago--two! Not five or all your life. Recall the snuggly soft kissy times at your friends' house in Asheville. That was less than one presidency ago. So your fall was not a lifetime long, it was a brief tripping-over-- this means that your climb back up could be as brief as another two years, not another 30! And your climb might be mostly completable in a year or less IF YOU START, but it will take longer to climb the longer you wait.
You see, time and the mind have been distorting your perceptions. You were making soleprints, with physical print proof even in 2022-- you could be doing those again with a little work even this month. Your opportunities are not gone and the forge is quick to heat up, even if it is only faintly warm now. Strike to make the iron hot, start the forge again, craft your life, strike it into shape. You are not at Anthrocon, you missed all your friends you wanted to meet there. Meet your other friends at CFF this year, craft art and goodies for this November, establish a schedule that lets you work at it, then accelerate off that schedule for next AC. Be in position, like a lance of 'Mechs. Be ready to strike at the right range with clear targeting. You must trade time for scheduling now, but if you do this you will begin trading back effort for all the you you were, and want to be, and all that everyone is waiting for you to be.
-Get your work rollin'
-Draw for Artfight and others and gift things
-Exercise and play, and work to replace the parts and equipment you need to play
-Make trip to Asheville, lighten your loads
-Do the plan and schedule that you need to do all the above
-Do the emails to CFF staff, CERT panel for CFF, and all the foodstuffs to take to AVL
-Open your room, your things, and physically invest effort into crafting and find your joys and softness in them, AND ADVERTISE WHAT YOU MAKE WITH PICS BECAUSE YOU DESERVE A LITTLE BRAGGING OF THE NICE CRAFTS YOU DO, KURRA
-Advertise everywhere, because you deserve to show off, and others deserve to see your love made in tails and sketches
-Send your queued emails, watch your friends' streams, and give your friends the benefit of the doubt--assume they missed you too and want your in their lives again
-Work not raggedly hard, but steady as your conscience wishes in all this. As the Spirit wishes.
-Finally, don't forget none of this will happen without leaning wholly on God, and the best intentioned stuff will not yield fruit unless you fully depend on and beg for and invite God into what you do, because God already knows your plans and wants you to prosper, not grind in mindless toil.
-p.s. Get yourself a teeny little whiteboard to draw schedule and essential doodles on because you should have a scratchboard darnit
-give strangers the benefit of the doubt too on Barq. Allow people into your love life again. Cuddle and tease gently. If you find a love, allow them in, and lower your guard please....
-Remember your other interests in life and magnify them. Sailing, surfing, freediving, mountain biking, trailrunning, camping, CERT, university education, the law, civil rights, space exploration, Star Trek, spiritual restoration, and environmental preservation.
-Forgive yourself. You saw what happens in AC when broken imperfect furries still come together and make brilliant life-filling things. You are no less qualified than they, and have a positive obligation to join them in whatever you do. Do something that will stay with others. Do something that elevates you.
-love, all the people who made me who I am today, and me too
Derse
~derse
<3
Kurradragon
~kurradragon
OP
*beams* <3
