ya know what, some people actually are better off dead and out of the world and other people's lives. I honestly believe with 95% of my being, logic, feeling, I'm one of them. Screw it. My tax aid and assistance can go back to the pool to go to some single because she bailed on her man mother with kids and support them. Support folks who actually want their lives, and actually think they are worth something, with something to offer. Better for me to not be here cause all the bullshit, confusion, and pain ends. Better for everyone else I'm not here cause, like I said, they can get the money back that I'm wasting by existing. Plus, no one has to deal with me anymore, good or bad. They're free of me. Might go and cry, but be back later. Might go act on my feels and thoughts and not be back at all. Laters 🫡

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I'm around, I guess. Can't say I don't beg for an end though... I just press on so no one has to deal with the mess of it being purposeful. Honestly don't know why I'm lingering anymore at this point though, wasting resources trying but still going no where, and considered lesser of for it. I guess Everything is a joke when it comes to the male of the species. Can be dumb, deaf, blind, and/or legit retarded, and then seen as nothing but a burden and a waste; but it's only as a male/man. No matter what you may bring, offer, do, try, etc, any one of those things as a man, and you become a burden very few, if any want to deal with, or be around, let alone stay and grow with. Women and pets, don't get that treatment though. They get genuine compassion and patience anyway, and loyalty(typically throwing it away anyway). Eh whatever. I'm around I guess, and hopeless about a lot of things, until I'm not around by nature's time of choosing... just wasting everything.