🤔 ngl, sometimes I do wonder if service, and subservient isn't a personality. There are times I think and feel that just an act of love and care, is not a personality. Now I want to do some psych study on personality, personalities, and any relation to society, and society as it changes(think that's called sociology)

At least, I think that way when defining personality by things like: able to have a conversation that isn't flirtatious, have things I like and could talk about with passion that isn't just supporting someone, having passions I could engage with by myself and then include others in, things like that. When I define personality based around those things, and not my care and love and desire to be loved, my praise and support, I wind up noticing I have almost nothing to say, and consequently also shut down cause it leaves me feeling empty and like alot more than what I notice is actually missing inside. That can make me look boring and without character or personality defining traits, things necessary to maintain both loving relationships, and friendships

I can both understand why I could look boring and not really engaging enough to keep around long term. But at the same time, folks need to accept me for who I am. Not only that, life isn't always interesting and filled with drama like in shows or movies; there will be plenty of moments where it's quiet with not much going on