Hey guys, just thought I would make another journal entry to let you all know how I’ve been fairing. I’m still dealing with on and off bouts of anxiety mostly when I first wake up and several hours after waking up. I’ve been doing a lot of meditating to help bring myself back into balance with myself mentally and emotionally. It seems like the only times when I feel the most at peace are when I am asleep or meditating.

I will be speaking with my therapist tomorrow, hopefully after our session, I will feel a lot safer in my own skin and not worry so much about what is currently going on, or what could happen. That’s been a constant struggle I have been dealing with, just revisiting anxiety inducing thoughts and concerns about the future while trying to remind myself of the fact that I am here in the present and I am perfectly safe and that what I have been most freaked out about is highly unlikely to ever happen.

Just a lot of catastrophizing about a whole bunch of What-Ifs? I am continuing to work with myself to stop thinking about those terrible things and to get back to enjoying life again, hopefully it will all work out. Cause I want to live a life where I am not paralyzed with fear over what could happen at any moment. I want to be able to do what I love to do without having such horrible thoughts hold me back. And I wish the same kind of happiness and prosperity for everyone else who may be going through what I have been going through.