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2 months ago
You don't know me, and I don't know you,
Perhaps we can fix that?
I've spent soo long as a goal driven, personal success oriented person that, I never really did sit down and examine exactly who I was, and what made me happy from the point where I took on the mantle of "person with serious job"
In my early years as a teen, and young adult, looking back I can see how very badly I struggled with undiagnosed, and... generally unknown to me social issues.
I was afraid of people, I was afraid of connection I was anti-social.
Some of my best friends to this day, are those I made through circumstance, people from whom I could get something from, who happened to reach back to me in friendship.
the First friend I ever made after moving was someone who helped me find my way home after school on my first day.
Another friend I made, I used to watch he and others playing the Yu-gi-oh card game. My brother, at the time, had given the game a try, but given up, and handed his deck off to me.
in my interest to learn the game, I... rather unceremoniously confronted this soon to be friend, and... quite bluntly asked him to "show me how to play" He has affectionately... amusedly told this story many times. and many friends I made from that day forward were made through him, through this card game, or through hobbies I picked up along the way.
For sure this did lead to very strong friendships, I don't regret them, however... it was always difficult to interact with new people, and I often found myself... disengaged... or disinterested, or powerfully self deprecating in the presence of people I didn't know, even depressed to the point of fleeing when I would struggle to engage in meaningful conversations.
Fast forward 15 years to the man I find myself as now. Still struggling to make friends, talk to people on any level... interact in any meaningful way really...
I took a gamble. I found a group of People, who fight in a Foam combat sport. I had dabbled with the sort of thing in high school. and thought it might not be a bad idea to have a physical hobby again.
This introduced me, to some very supportive people, whether they meant to do it or not... just... their ability to unashamedly, unapologetically... be who the hell they wanted to be changed something in me. I started questioning exactly why the hell I couldn't just... do what I want? with who I was?
I am.. sad that It took me reaching my 30's before I allowed myself to be myself, and to really just... give myself permission to have likes and desires.
It's starting to open doors for me, and I'm excited to step through them.
Hello everyone, I am Tyran, I am a Furry, I love cats, I love science fiction, I fight people with sticks on the weekend, and I've got a dark, sometimes twisted sense of humor.
I'm no extrovert, I might not talk to you everyday, but lets be friends.
Perhaps we can fix that?
I've spent soo long as a goal driven, personal success oriented person that, I never really did sit down and examine exactly who I was, and what made me happy from the point where I took on the mantle of "person with serious job"
In my early years as a teen, and young adult, looking back I can see how very badly I struggled with undiagnosed, and... generally unknown to me social issues.
I was afraid of people, I was afraid of connection I was anti-social.
Some of my best friends to this day, are those I made through circumstance, people from whom I could get something from, who happened to reach back to me in friendship.
the First friend I ever made after moving was someone who helped me find my way home after school on my first day.
Another friend I made, I used to watch he and others playing the Yu-gi-oh card game. My brother, at the time, had given the game a try, but given up, and handed his deck off to me.
in my interest to learn the game, I... rather unceremoniously confronted this soon to be friend, and... quite bluntly asked him to "show me how to play" He has affectionately... amusedly told this story many times. and many friends I made from that day forward were made through him, through this card game, or through hobbies I picked up along the way.
For sure this did lead to very strong friendships, I don't regret them, however... it was always difficult to interact with new people, and I often found myself... disengaged... or disinterested, or powerfully self deprecating in the presence of people I didn't know, even depressed to the point of fleeing when I would struggle to engage in meaningful conversations.
Fast forward 15 years to the man I find myself as now. Still struggling to make friends, talk to people on any level... interact in any meaningful way really...
I took a gamble. I found a group of People, who fight in a Foam combat sport. I had dabbled with the sort of thing in high school. and thought it might not be a bad idea to have a physical hobby again.
This introduced me, to some very supportive people, whether they meant to do it or not... just... their ability to unashamedly, unapologetically... be who the hell they wanted to be changed something in me. I started questioning exactly why the hell I couldn't just... do what I want? with who I was?
I am.. sad that It took me reaching my 30's before I allowed myself to be myself, and to really just... give myself permission to have likes and desires.
It's starting to open doors for me, and I'm excited to step through them.
Hello everyone, I am Tyran, I am a Furry, I love cats, I love science fiction, I fight people with sticks on the weekend, and I've got a dark, sometimes twisted sense of humor.
I'm no extrovert, I might not talk to you everyday, but lets be friends.
