I want to share something with you i have been feeling different about my identity i'm thinking of changing it too Kieren or kieran not to sure about having my surname as Husky tho i feel emotionally connected to that name i feel like i need to start new i have gone through a lot in my life depression from 15 up too 21 then lost my Dad to COVID-19 in 2022 not having IRL friends i have been more emotional not because i'm depressed or there's something wrong with me i feel like I have become much more emotionally aware & emotionally sensitive i can feel how others feel if i upset someone or if someone is upset these emotions are still new to me and it can be very intense because i get very overwhelmed by them such as crying and feeling tender one of them is Secret crushes i really get attracted too fursona's and i have to hold back my feelings because i'm worried that i will scare them off or make them feel uncomfortable I also worry i won't be able to fav there art because it means a lot to me to be able to do that it makes me feel part of the furry fandom and losing that ability would feel like loosing part of myself that's why i get very upset when i get blocked. it's a real challenge for me having crushes i even cry because that's how much i really like them i hope this journal helps others feel seen and less alone this is me showing my symbolic vulnerability that i share openly not just to help me get through my own thoughts and emotions but to hopefully help others feel less alone and seen because i really care about others there's one fursona i'm really attracted to and i want to get this of my chest and there name is faron. i hope this is ok me sharing this if this makes you uncomfortable i can remove it i respect everyone's boundaries there are a couple others i'm really attracted too but i don't want to make anyone uncomfortable like i have said before i respect everyone even if they are upset with me or don't like me using AI to help me find words i really struggle finding the words i want to say sometimes Kieren.