I want to share something with you i have been feeling different about my identity i'm thinking of changing it too Kieren or kieran not to sure about having my surname as Husky tho i feel emotionally connected to that name i feel like i need to start new i have gone through a lot in my life depression from 15 up too 21 then lost my Dad to COVID-19 in 2022 not having IRL friends i have been more emotional not because i'm depressed or there's something wrong with me i feel like I have become much more emotionally aware & emotionally sensitive i can feel how others feel if i upset someone or if someone is upset these emotions are still new to me and it can be very intense because i get very overwhelmed by them such as crying and feeling tender one of them is Secret crushes i really get attracted too fursona's and i have to hold back my feelings because i'm worried that i will scare them off or make them feel uncomfortable I also worry i won't be able to fav there art because it means a lot to me to be able to do that it makes me feel part of the furry fandom that's why i get very upset when i get blocked. it's a real challenge for me having crushes i even cry because that's how much i really like them i hope this journal helps others feel seen and less alone this is me showing my symbolic vulnerability that i share openly not just to help me get through my own thoughts and emotions but to hopefully help others feel less alone and seen because i really care about others there's one fursona i'm really attracted to and i want to get this of my chest and there name is faron. i hope this is ok me sharing this if this makes you uncomfortable i can remove it i respect everyone's boundaries there are a couple others i'm really attracted too but i don't want to make anyone uncomfortable like i have said before i respect everyone even if they are upset with me or don't like me using AI to help me find words i really struggle finding the words i want to say sometimes Kieren.