Been having an invisible pain attack all morning. Not like, hyperventilating visible kind, but the kind where I have the full body shakes, trembles, dizziness. Still noticeable but not as. I'd have to be touched to feel the vibration of my shaking.

Yeah, anxiety kinda sucks when it kicks in. I get as chicken as Courage the cowardly dog when it does. What am I afraid of when it kicks in? Uh, umm, emotional and physical closeness, and losing it without explanation or just cause of inadequacies, or losing it cause it's my fault

Don't even know why I'm writing this. No one give a shit, or if they do, they regret giving a shit, regret caring, regret being around, cause such issues are a bother/burden to deal with when they flare up.