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So... October...
2 weeks ago
Hey guys!
Sorry about the lack of content and updates from me recently, things have been surprisingly busy, and mood has been all over the place.
LIFE STUFF
So yeah, first things... Obviously there's been the whole turned 39 back in August which is still one of those things that weighs on my mind a bit... mostly because of the BIG 40 that's slowly coming around the corner which is starting to feel like this impending deadline to get things sorted in my life before I "fucked forever" it feels...
I've had work done to my garden, having a new patio installed and new furniture, a Pergola and stuff to go with it... even more recently getting some new plants for the border to make things look nice, which has eaten up a few weekends to get sorted out.
I've also started going to the gym on a very regular basic (3 days a week when plausible) often even walking to and from the gym which is roughly a 1.5km (0.9 mile) walk. That coupled with the 3.6km 92.3 miles) I do at the gym, along with 100 5kg (11 lbs) bicep curls 50 5kg (11 lbs) tricep extensions and 30/40 36kg (80 lbs) reps on the chest press... I am trying my best to improve my health, and in turn trying to feel better about myself...
I've also started attending a D&D guild that set itself up in a local gamer geek pub in town as a means to get out more and meet with people.
Last weekend however, everything all sort of piled up...
Friday started with me being a little low and not really sure what to do with myself or if I could even be bothered if I did have anything... then I got a call from a friend who'd gotten kicked HARD by depression... I spent an hour or chatting with them and told them to come over after work to hang out... afterwards I decided to spot being a bitch and went to the gym, moment I got back friend arrived and we hung out (watching movies and such) until about 9pm when they started feeling a bit drowsy and went home. I then got into a 4hour long online conversation with another friend of mine followed by a 3 hour chat with my house mate... getting to bed a 4:30am...
Saturday, getting up at 9:30 to go shopping with another friend to come back to sort out my taxes (which my friend from yesterday had to help me out with most of because I have no clue how to do any of this) which didn't get finished until like 4pm when I had to head out for this D&D club... getting back at around 10:30pm... and though I can't quite remember what I did I still ended up being busy and not getting to bed until 2am...
Sunday, folks come over around 10am, we end up sorting out issues with the garden furniture, the pergola, and other stuff eventually ending with a meal at a Thai cafe with the two friends from before as my folks wanted to treat them to a meal for all the help they'd been in helping me out with the house (something I'd been back and forth with between my folks and friends with over the past week to ty an organise the best place and time for). meaning at 6pm Sunday I was finally free to enjoy and rest on my weekend...
This week hasn't really been all that much, spent the first few days trying to actually rest whilst still going to the gym, head space been pretty low for the most part meaning my art and stuff has been suffering as a result... and what honestly took me aback was in a chat with 
sophs over discord explaining my low mood and the probable cause (aka near 15 years of loneliness) despite saying I was getting better I nearly burst into tears out of nowhere... so that was a thing...
ART STUFF
One of the things you may have been noticing is that I've been trying out a different shading technique in recent months... I'd hesitate to say its a "new" technique, it's not... hell... it's not even a new technique for me, it's actually one I technically sorta used to use way back when but could never get it to look good... although it has some teething issues when I initially started adopting it, once I started getting used to it I found it to be a fairly comfortable and ultimately quicker and easier than my go to technique... to only caveat being that some of the more unique colour schemes I've had for characters doesn't work with this technique... ultimately, i feel I will end up sticking with this style as it just makes some things that were simply impossible with my old style actually plausible to do (aka colour blending).
Also, I do have a few things on the horizon I'm hoping to put out soon so stay tuned for those...
anyway, gunna stop rambling now... take care of yourselves everyone
sophs