Turns out that bureaucracy bullshit from last year has sneakily hit me again without any warning or reminder nearly 2 months ago, and this time the demands are even more massive, requiring new up-to-date diagnoses and medical plans and so on. At least this time I know what not to do from the experiences from the last time, but it's probably still gonna be a lengthy process with all the added demands even if I do reach out to private health care before my savings are all gone again. Honestly just losing my hope and trust on these systems and getting increasingly certain I will be needing to rely on more ballsy strategies to break free from this shit by finding a more sustainable source of support and income online and probably also just go force some place to hire me through some underhanded means, like straight up robbing myself a job no one's willing to give me otherwise. Until then any support would be appreciated. My current stress levels still aren't letting me focus on producing arts, and trying to sell future commissions at this point just feels dishonest to me if the world refuses to stop sinking deeper and deeper into shit like it has for the past 5 years nonstop. When will the "slow apocalypse" finally be over? I have no idea and thus have no idea when i'll be able to deliver, but for a little more loose and less scammy alternative, I suppose I could offer people a chance to invest into a future commission? And if they find themselves in need of getting their investments back before I can get to working on the stuff, I can just refund it if I'm not in a similarly dire situation myself at that point. Could these strats work maybe?