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Alive, just not very social
2 months ago
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Yeah yeah whee. I still exist.
Snark aside, yeah, I'm still alive. I've just been extremely not inclined to put myself out socially. Not without multiple levels of irony. Oh God damn it.
It's anxiety, impatience, and a dubious self worth. That's my excuse for not being that out there. I'm not going to waffle on and obsess about high quality people like certain people who proved unsafe anyhow in my past, but it's a thought.
Despite that though. I've been trying to stream a little bit more. Twitch, not Picarto. I'm currently in a affiliate push on Twitch, getting over that final stream hurdle has proven to be a bitch.
Drawing, I'm still trying to do that, but full time work and other hobbies makes it unlikely. Says the jackal that just did two PNGtubers. I've been wanting to shift my focus a bit back to actual worldbuilding, but complex feelings there. Curse the modern social media age.
One of the other hobbies have been music. Still trying to get good there, least within the genres I want to write. Techstep DnB circa 2000. The Good Shit™️. Not much to say beyond "God I need more help getting out of my own head, and getting the stuff in my head into a DAW"
Still not taking commissions btw. No requests either. Trades, maybe on a good day.
I actually wonder if I should upload any of the commissions I've received. Especially since for a lot of them have been unposted by the artist. For me, it kinda felt like any attention I would receive from that, beyond like ref sheets (for the purposes of displaying my own characters) would be piggying back on the efforts of the artist themselves, though, frankly, I should know better, as someone who doesn't care from the other side myself, if not, an frequently curious about how others would describe what I've drawn for them.
Some sort of journal ending goes here.
Snark aside, yeah, I'm still alive. I've just been extremely not inclined to put myself out socially. Not without multiple levels of irony. Oh God damn it.
It's anxiety, impatience, and a dubious self worth. That's my excuse for not being that out there. I'm not going to waffle on and obsess about high quality people like certain people who proved unsafe anyhow in my past, but it's a thought.
Despite that though. I've been trying to stream a little bit more. Twitch, not Picarto. I'm currently in a affiliate push on Twitch, getting over that final stream hurdle has proven to be a bitch.
Drawing, I'm still trying to do that, but full time work and other hobbies makes it unlikely. Says the jackal that just did two PNGtubers. I've been wanting to shift my focus a bit back to actual worldbuilding, but complex feelings there. Curse the modern social media age.
One of the other hobbies have been music. Still trying to get good there, least within the genres I want to write. Techstep DnB circa 2000. The Good Shit™️. Not much to say beyond "God I need more help getting out of my own head, and getting the stuff in my head into a DAW"
Still not taking commissions btw. No requests either. Trades, maybe on a good day.
I actually wonder if I should upload any of the commissions I've received. Especially since for a lot of them have been unposted by the artist. For me, it kinda felt like any attention I would receive from that, beyond like ref sheets (for the purposes of displaying my own characters) would be piggying back on the efforts of the artist themselves, though, frankly, I should know better, as someone who doesn't care from the other side myself, if not, an frequently curious about how others would describe what I've drawn for them.
Some sort of journal ending goes here.
pokemon68
~pokemon68
I'm glad you're still alive
