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a month ago
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I’m aware I haven’t posted anything in a while, so I can use this as an excuse to make another journal.
First off, Linux has been working pretty well for me. I finally got the damn mods for Fallout 4 to work. I still need to find a way to make Timesplitters Rewind’s demo to work but that can wait. Still need to reinstall Unity and Moho, just keep putting those off.
More importantly, I’ve finally been making progress on my novel! It’s usually only a sentence or paragraph a day, but it’s still progress. I really thank Lanny Ohowitz as it was a conversation I had with him that really gave me the drive to do this. I’m still not sure if I can finish the book by the end of this year, but I’ll keep working on it bit by bit.
I do want to draw as well. However, I got burned out after finishing a big birthday picture for a friend, so I’m not sure when I’ll start again.
Honestly the only issue I’ve still been having is energy. I just feel tired a lot of the day and don’t feel like doing extra work on projects sometime. I still have trouble sleeping properly as well. I’m hoping my mental doctor can help me with that.
I’ve been wanting to commission artists again, though with all the recent crap Paypal has been pulling, I’m honestly scared to try it. They say you’ll be fine as long as neither party mentions the word “Commission” but it still makes me nervous to risk losing my account. Anyone had any trouble or advice?
Speaking of commissions, have you ever had an artist you developed so much respect for, you don’t want to comm diaper stuff from them out of respect? I’ve felt that way for a few artists, some have given me such insightful information, that I don’t want to disrespect them by commissioning diaper art, even though I kinda want to. Just a weird thought I had, you think it’s okay to commission them if they say diaper art is fine?
Anyway, this is where I am, hopefully I can keep getting more productive. Still want to work on game development and animation, just need the right tutorials to get me there. Also need to find a way to balance things. Suggestions are welcome for that.
First off, Linux has been working pretty well for me. I finally got the damn mods for Fallout 4 to work. I still need to find a way to make Timesplitters Rewind’s demo to work but that can wait. Still need to reinstall Unity and Moho, just keep putting those off.
More importantly, I’ve finally been making progress on my novel! It’s usually only a sentence or paragraph a day, but it’s still progress. I really thank Lanny Ohowitz as it was a conversation I had with him that really gave me the drive to do this. I’m still not sure if I can finish the book by the end of this year, but I’ll keep working on it bit by bit.
I do want to draw as well. However, I got burned out after finishing a big birthday picture for a friend, so I’m not sure when I’ll start again.
Honestly the only issue I’ve still been having is energy. I just feel tired a lot of the day and don’t feel like doing extra work on projects sometime. I still have trouble sleeping properly as well. I’m hoping my mental doctor can help me with that.
I’ve been wanting to commission artists again, though with all the recent crap Paypal has been pulling, I’m honestly scared to try it. They say you’ll be fine as long as neither party mentions the word “Commission” but it still makes me nervous to risk losing my account. Anyone had any trouble or advice?
Speaking of commissions, have you ever had an artist you developed so much respect for, you don’t want to comm diaper stuff from them out of respect? I’ve felt that way for a few artists, some have given me such insightful information, that I don’t want to disrespect them by commissioning diaper art, even though I kinda want to. Just a weird thought I had, you think it’s okay to commission them if they say diaper art is fine?
Anyway, this is where I am, hopefully I can keep getting more productive. Still want to work on game development and animation, just need the right tutorials to get me there. Also need to find a way to balance things. Suggestions are welcome for that.
And burn outs are the worst, I have those almost all the time. But luckily, I have been taking care of myself a lot more with less stress in my life. Don't worry Leon, I'm sure you'll bounce back with enough time away, just remember to stay hydrated.
Hope you can work things out!
If an artist is completely fine with drawing diapers, then it’s fine to hire them to draw diaper art. I don’t believe it’s disrespectful at all to commission, unless they specify it’s not allowed. You can ask an enquiry if it’s not mentioned, it doesn’t hurt to ask. Heck, I spoken to a non-ABDL artist about characters wearing diapers and gave them context to the scene before and they were fine with it. I say to think it like this: they’re getting paid work in the end and it’s only disrespectful, if their boundaries are disregarded.
I don't know much about those games, even though i love fallout, and been watching the show with
Good luck with your novel!
I hear you so much about the feeling tired i experience this everyday so far with no/not much help from doctors other than them telling me how fat i am.
About the paypal while there is some real worry about payment processors at times, i do think a lot of it is fear mongering and that the people who had their account suspended if you dig deeper there may have been a reason such as getting to many "gift" payments, and not sending invoices properly rather than actually it being due to nsfw content. At least that is what i have heard.
As for the diaper thing, i am sure if they say diapered content is okay it's fine. For awhile i thought diapers were so normal even before i knew what a babyfur was. Everyone has different levels of what triggers them you know so it's probably not as bad as you are thinking.
I really hope that you are able to get back to being creative and enjoying it! :)