So, my girlfriend... Of four years... She had to move back to America for a while, so the only way I could really contact her was through her computer. So! recently, God blessed me with another curse of her computer breaking. So I haven't had much talking with her. However... recently I got worried, as it has been a month and 8 days [but who's counting?] since I spoke to her last. So, using my initiative and inteligence... Pfft... I called up her home adress and workplace. [Yes that was VERY expensive.]... And this is what I got.

her workplace is not employing her 'at this time', couldn't tell me why, and her home has a married couple in it who have only recently moved in and have never heard of her...

This leaves my fucked up mind on the new medication two options. 1: Something unthinkable has happened to her. Or, 2: she's moved and no one knows where or why.

I do not believe number two. Allow me to explain my awfull logic.

I've seen and been in enough of these situations to know the chances of number 2 happening are 3% at best. And if I fool myself into believing it IS number 2, then when I am slammed to Earth by the hard hitting reality that it was infact number one it will destroy my alrleady shocked mind and I will deteriorate into a mindless, unwaking machine.

At the moment I am in a shocked state and find myself unable to speak. I can't muster the words. I have no idea what I'm going to do...