It's been so long since I've been on FA. Alot of stuff has happened. I'm not living anywhere right now, I'm completely broke and cant find a job, and I have to get tested for cancer. School has been busy too but I really want to start drawing again and maybe start my life back up. I havent seen any of my friends in months and I'm really starting to miss them. It's really depressing knowing that your friends dont miss you the way you miss them. Having fun just being myself and not having to pretend to be this other person for people to like me. Maybe I'll just stop by Jack's house and surprise him, see if my other friends would even want to talk to me anymore or if they've moved on with their lives. Talking to some people in housing crisis to see if maybe I can get some help finding a job and a home.

Art is really what I need to get back into. It made me feel good to know that my skills werent molded but I'm still really good. I have so many talents, but I havent done anything with them lately and I think that might be why I'm so depressed which might be why I'm getting so sick. Let's hope its not cancer and I'm just depressed and art will make it all better.