I doubt I'll ever find a normal relationship or friendship in today's generation but the more I try to reach out to the people around me, the more I'm disheartened by the idiots and cruelty of the society that I seem to have been born into, since everyone just seems to want to use me for the moment, and then when they have gotten what they wanted, they want nothing to do with me, despite the fact that they say I am 'hot' or 'amazing' or the fact that I just had my skills in action, rendering them into a moaning mess at my mercy, but then again that's probably my fault for moving that fast with them.

This has happened too much and as it is, I don't know if I can bring myself to say 'no more', since it's hard to say no to something that can't bring harm to me, well.. nevermind.... it can bring harm.. harm to my heart, harm to my mental being, but until someone comes along that will put forth the effort without expecting me to do what they want, when someone bothers to accept me for who I am instead of what I am physically, I'm just going to have to ride this out. I'm alive, but I feel 'frozen'.

Maybe my life will be much better when the sun rises again..