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Awesome People and Close Friends Part 1
Hey guys,
I just wanted to say thank you for all the kind words that you've had to offer, it certainly has helped me out tonight <3 I love all you guys <3 I love this fandom and all of the people in it <3
If you care to stick around this journal, I'll tell you a little story as to why this week has been pretty rough...
Last week, i had an interview for a job, and early this week i found out that i wasnt selected for the job... So that was a bit of a bummer, as i was really looking forward to it, as it was a job i could see myself being happy with, and having a lot of fun with. So yeah, that was a bit of a downer, and the job search resumed onwards.
The next thing in the week... I wont go into too much detail, because i could hear a lot of you screaming "TMI!!" but to sum it up, i may have a kidney stone inside of me... I'm going in on Monday for an xray and an ultrasound to see if i do in fact have one floating around inside of me. That got me pretty bummed out, as i guess i felt a lot OLDER because of it >.< Im not sure what the average age is for kidney stones, but i feel pretty young to be having one >.< and plus im not looking forward to having to pass one if its in there >.<
On top of that, i have a really close friend who i feel i may have bugged too many times about certain things, and now im not sure if that friend still likes me or not... I just know they're irritated with me, and i feel really really guilty about bugging them so much >.<
But... The main thing that has probably caused this whole fit of depression and loneliness... You see, i had a parrot, a Moluccan Cockatoo named Poyo (actual spelling is Pollo... Yes, our parrot was the spanish name for chicken :P) We rescued her from a biker who was very abusive to her. We loved her and cared for her, and she took to me the most.
In the 16 years we had her, she became my baby girl... I was like her father, and she was my little child... I loved her to death. She would watch TV with me, sit on me while i surfed the web. I hand fed her, and overall i just took care of her the most.
Well, because of the environment she was in before we rescued her, her health wasnt the greatest. She had her wing broken by the biker guy, and it was never treated properly, so she couldnt fly. Once in a while, she had the habit of falling off her perch in the middle of the night, falling to the bottom of her cage. Eventually she did this enough times that it rebroke her bad wing.
We took her to the vet to get it healed, but the bone would just not heal, and eventually we had to get her wing amputated... But it didnt stop there, as we hoped she would recover from this, but over the last few years of her life, her health just got worse and worse... The falling from her cage became more frequent, and eventually she broke her leg... We took her out of the cage completely, and moved her to a pet carrier for her to sleep in, somewhere where she couldnt fall.
Alas, her health still continued to degrade. I came out to see my mom on our farm the day before mothers day a couple years ago, and i got to see my baby, but i could tell something was very wrong with her... She just looked so weak and so defeated... I cuddled with her for a few hours, just holding her and petting her, she didnt even say a word the entire time...
The next day was mothers day, and i took mom out for lunch... a half an hour later, when she arrived home, she phoned me to tell me that Pollo had died... I was devastated... I just had seen her the day before, and now she was dead... I got out to the farm as quick as i could to see her, and i was just so floored... I never cried so hard in my entire life, holding my babies lifeless body in my hands, stroking her feathers, wishing it was all a bad dream... but, it was the real world, and my baby had died...
A couple months after that happened, I moved out to Toronto to look for work, living with my dad, step mom, and her mom. It was different moving from the west coast to the east coast. I left all my friends behind, and i left the luxury of having pets behind... I couldnt have a dog or a cat in this house because my step mom was allergic to fur. At one point i offered to maybe get a bunny or something, an animal that was small and didnt make a huge mess, but ultimately the decision was 'no pets'
This week, i happened to be looking through classified ads, and there was a family giving away 2 beautiful Macaw parrots for free, saying that they werent able to provide the love and attention they needed, and were giving them to a good home... Normally you see parrots go for hundreds of dollars to be bought, but this family was just giving them away, and they looked so pretty...
I would have loved to adopt one, as i could have provided it with the love and attention it needed, and it would have filled the gap in my heart that was missing with the loss of my Pollo... Birds arent all that dirty a creature, and they're fairly easy to clean up after, so i asked my step mom and her mom if i could adopt one, but i was met with a very firm "No" after asking... I need to have my own place to live before i can get a pet...
and so... Over the past few days, ive been a little heart stricken... All these events stacked up on top of each other and put me in a fairly depressed state... The one bright side to the week is that i do have a job interview tomorrow, so i hope it goes well.
If you stayed to read my story, then thank you <3 I hope this clears up a bit why ive been so sad. Thank you guys, i love you all <3
I just wanted to say thank you for all the kind words that you've had to offer, it certainly has helped me out tonight <3 I love all you guys <3 I love this fandom and all of the people in it <3
If you care to stick around this journal, I'll tell you a little story as to why this week has been pretty rough...
Last week, i had an interview for a job, and early this week i found out that i wasnt selected for the job... So that was a bit of a bummer, as i was really looking forward to it, as it was a job i could see myself being happy with, and having a lot of fun with. So yeah, that was a bit of a downer, and the job search resumed onwards.
The next thing in the week... I wont go into too much detail, because i could hear a lot of you screaming "TMI!!" but to sum it up, i may have a kidney stone inside of me... I'm going in on Monday for an xray and an ultrasound to see if i do in fact have one floating around inside of me. That got me pretty bummed out, as i guess i felt a lot OLDER because of it >.< Im not sure what the average age is for kidney stones, but i feel pretty young to be having one >.< and plus im not looking forward to having to pass one if its in there >.<
On top of that, i have a really close friend who i feel i may have bugged too many times about certain things, and now im not sure if that friend still likes me or not... I just know they're irritated with me, and i feel really really guilty about bugging them so much >.<
But... The main thing that has probably caused this whole fit of depression and loneliness... You see, i had a parrot, a Moluccan Cockatoo named Poyo (actual spelling is Pollo... Yes, our parrot was the spanish name for chicken :P) We rescued her from a biker who was very abusive to her. We loved her and cared for her, and she took to me the most.
In the 16 years we had her, she became my baby girl... I was like her father, and she was my little child... I loved her to death. She would watch TV with me, sit on me while i surfed the web. I hand fed her, and overall i just took care of her the most.
Well, because of the environment she was in before we rescued her, her health wasnt the greatest. She had her wing broken by the biker guy, and it was never treated properly, so she couldnt fly. Once in a while, she had the habit of falling off her perch in the middle of the night, falling to the bottom of her cage. Eventually she did this enough times that it rebroke her bad wing.
We took her to the vet to get it healed, but the bone would just not heal, and eventually we had to get her wing amputated... But it didnt stop there, as we hoped she would recover from this, but over the last few years of her life, her health just got worse and worse... The falling from her cage became more frequent, and eventually she broke her leg... We took her out of the cage completely, and moved her to a pet carrier for her to sleep in, somewhere where she couldnt fall.
Alas, her health still continued to degrade. I came out to see my mom on our farm the day before mothers day a couple years ago, and i got to see my baby, but i could tell something was very wrong with her... She just looked so weak and so defeated... I cuddled with her for a few hours, just holding her and petting her, she didnt even say a word the entire time...
The next day was mothers day, and i took mom out for lunch... a half an hour later, when she arrived home, she phoned me to tell me that Pollo had died... I was devastated... I just had seen her the day before, and now she was dead... I got out to the farm as quick as i could to see her, and i was just so floored... I never cried so hard in my entire life, holding my babies lifeless body in my hands, stroking her feathers, wishing it was all a bad dream... but, it was the real world, and my baby had died...
A couple months after that happened, I moved out to Toronto to look for work, living with my dad, step mom, and her mom. It was different moving from the west coast to the east coast. I left all my friends behind, and i left the luxury of having pets behind... I couldnt have a dog or a cat in this house because my step mom was allergic to fur. At one point i offered to maybe get a bunny or something, an animal that was small and didnt make a huge mess, but ultimately the decision was 'no pets'
This week, i happened to be looking through classified ads, and there was a family giving away 2 beautiful Macaw parrots for free, saying that they werent able to provide the love and attention they needed, and were giving them to a good home... Normally you see parrots go for hundreds of dollars to be bought, but this family was just giving them away, and they looked so pretty...
I would have loved to adopt one, as i could have provided it with the love and attention it needed, and it would have filled the gap in my heart that was missing with the loss of my Pollo... Birds arent all that dirty a creature, and they're fairly easy to clean up after, so i asked my step mom and her mom if i could adopt one, but i was met with a very firm "No" after asking... I need to have my own place to live before i can get a pet...
and so... Over the past few days, ive been a little heart stricken... All these events stacked up on top of each other and put me in a fairly depressed state... The one bright side to the week is that i do have a job interview tomorrow, so i hope it goes well.
If you stayed to read my story, then thank you <3 I hope this clears up a bit why ive been so sad. Thank you guys, i love you all <3
Awesome People and Close Friends Part 2
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I would've said something on the earlier journal but didn't have anything helpful at the time.
~Kiyote!
Be like you beloved parrot and spread your wings and your life will take flight once more :3
That was a very touching story about your parrot, I know the feeling of losing a pet so special.
Good luck on the interview, I hope you get tge job. :)
I hope you find a job and a new place soon, and I am so sorry about your bird. Hang in there.
I know how you feel
And don't let the kidney stones mess with your head too much...I have a bunch of 'em; been dealing with them as a result of my reflux for the past year or so, and I'm only nineteen. xD Don't let it make you feel old, or anything like that. You'll be okay.
your bird had a nice life with you, and im sure (s)he is happy where ever (s)he is, try and be optimistic about it, everything has a good side, you just have to look for it
The job market in Toronto isn't great at the moment. I'm applying left and right but there aren't many jobs I'm qualified for and it's difficult to compete in such a small pool of jobs. I had a phone interview a couple of weeks ago but never heard back; probably just as well--they put seven job ads up in the past week. What sort of area do you want to work in?
Good luck with the stone!
Hope you feel better soon.