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You just want to beat me down till I'm nothing again...
14 years ago
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For anyone who cares to read my journal:
Life has been trying to pumble me into a state of pure depression now for the last 5 months of my life with no hope of any successfully un-scared future.
First there is Christmas, where my 14 year old cousin got high on drugs, hopped onto his dirt bike, and went tearing down the street with no helmet only to crash into a car at full speed. One immediate life flight to the hospital and over 45 cousins, aunts, and uncles crying later he managed to live even though he split his jaw in half and gods know what other damage (FYI he is now fully recovered).
2nd: School... well, I considered taking a break from it for a semester because that is just how much bullshit I was getting from the god damn administration. I swear the campus showed me one of its ugliest sides as I tried to plan my courses out and get my degree. Hassling from parents on the subject didn't help at all but I decided to bite the bullet and go through with my schooling.
3rd: Right after I make the "bite the bullet" decision my grandfather passes away on my birthday (this was also the day of AND the day before an exam). I was lucky enough that my mother flew me over before the rest of the family could arrive so that I could say my personal goodbyes. I can't take death or funerals in particular that well (I have to wait outside alone).
Then, school is finally over and my parents officially move back to the U.S. after living in Qatar (country in the middle east) for the last 5 years. I'm also going to get to see my cat who I haven't seen in two years either! But, life decided that I hadn't had enough yet so it took my cat away from me this last Saturday as well. She fell deathly sick but I was able to come back and be with here for a few days before we had to put her down.
And now... for the god damn fucking icing on the cake! My Grandmother has been sick with cancer for a while but she was taking what looked like a decent chemo therapy treatment... WRONG! Turns out the cancer backlashed and she had to look at another treatment only to discover that she was having mini brain strokes because one of the main arteries in her neck has a 60% plaque build up. I haven't heard the latest but it looks like they are going to have to try a risky surgery on this artery before any other options are open.
(I'm going to attempt to be a little silly know for anyone who has played Portal 2 and also to try and lighten this depressing mood)
So yeah... Life decided to give me rotten lemons and is wanting me to make the best of it. Well fuck you life! I want you to take them back! I want to make combustible lemons that will BURN YOUR HOUSE DOWN!!!
So yeah... at this point I'm pretty much just sitting back and waiting for the next good thing to get ruined again.
Life has been trying to pumble me into a state of pure depression now for the last 5 months of my life with no hope of any successfully un-scared future.
First there is Christmas, where my 14 year old cousin got high on drugs, hopped onto his dirt bike, and went tearing down the street with no helmet only to crash into a car at full speed. One immediate life flight to the hospital and over 45 cousins, aunts, and uncles crying later he managed to live even though he split his jaw in half and gods know what other damage (FYI he is now fully recovered).
2nd: School... well, I considered taking a break from it for a semester because that is just how much bullshit I was getting from the god damn administration. I swear the campus showed me one of its ugliest sides as I tried to plan my courses out and get my degree. Hassling from parents on the subject didn't help at all but I decided to bite the bullet and go through with my schooling.
3rd: Right after I make the "bite the bullet" decision my grandfather passes away on my birthday (this was also the day of AND the day before an exam). I was lucky enough that my mother flew me over before the rest of the family could arrive so that I could say my personal goodbyes. I can't take death or funerals in particular that well (I have to wait outside alone).
Then, school is finally over and my parents officially move back to the U.S. after living in Qatar (country in the middle east) for the last 5 years. I'm also going to get to see my cat who I haven't seen in two years either! But, life decided that I hadn't had enough yet so it took my cat away from me this last Saturday as well. She fell deathly sick but I was able to come back and be with here for a few days before we had to put her down.
And now... for the god damn fucking icing on the cake! My Grandmother has been sick with cancer for a while but she was taking what looked like a decent chemo therapy treatment... WRONG! Turns out the cancer backlashed and she had to look at another treatment only to discover that she was having mini brain strokes because one of the main arteries in her neck has a 60% plaque build up. I haven't heard the latest but it looks like they are going to have to try a risky surgery on this artery before any other options are open.
(I'm going to attempt to be a little silly know for anyone who has played Portal 2 and also to try and lighten this depressing mood)
So yeah... Life decided to give me rotten lemons and is wanting me to make the best of it. Well fuck you life! I want you to take them back! I want to make combustible lemons that will BURN YOUR HOUSE DOWN!!!
So yeah... at this point I'm pretty much just sitting back and waiting for the next good thing to get ruined again.
Get mad at life! We don't want your damn lemons D:!
lloool. <3 Cave Johnson.
At least now though my grandmother had her surgery and there were no problems. But now she has to get on chemo again and she can't eat ANY processed foods ever again (which sucks =( ).