So i'm reading shit up about the Peace Corp and i'm trying to decide if i should do it or not.... Yeah after bitching about terrorists and religion i'm going to throw myself in a new country that probly is full of religion... Sounds like fun! woo! And of corse there is the stupid politics i bitched about and now i'm looking into escaping it to do some good.... Who would you rather vote for? Some one who served in the military? or in the peace corp? Personaly i would rather vote for some one who volunteered for basicly nothing to go help people with basicly nothing. Better then signing up to go murder people or tell people to murder people.....

So i have no idea if i'm definelty doing it yet but i hadn't post a journal in awial so i figured i would vomit some words onto my journal.... Maybe when i actualy have people watching me i'll be able to look back at what they thought of my opinion? Heh.... i think the only person who really reads these is myself... but oh well... i still have a place i can put my thoughts down....

Corse i don't know what i should do! I mean.... i feel really depressed right now so maybe alot of this is just feeling low and wanting to escape my life.... i do want to help people.... but... is this really worth it? I could feel totaly difrent once i get there.... But i love helping others... But i get easly irritated with annoying people..... and gods how i would hate to go to Africa and have to deal with the AIDS and stuff... would probly drive me mad and not help at all....

Oh well..... honestly i post my thoughts here hoping some one will notice and look over them... and maybe comment or something.... but most the time the comments i get are just from friends who i already talk to about these things, or they just throw up something goofy or whatever.... i wonder if anyone will even notice i posted a new journal?

(added one hour later) I just did a variaty of work out stuff, figuring if i wanted to do this i better get in shape.... And after a hour i start having doubts already.... It seems more and more like its just a way to escape my current crappy situation of depression.... So I'm gonna sit on it for a week or so and then decide if i'm still intrested....