Have you ever felt as if the world was falling appart, as if nothing made any sens anymore and you were slowly losing your mind? No matter how much you tried nothing seems to work and you just keep curling up in a ball crying everyday ?

Yet you care for someone and wish only he'd show up out of nowhere saying his sorry, that he loves you and hug you.

Yet you know that's only a dream and that he won't do it. That your lost alone and slowly fading away waiting for your brain to finnally snap and stop working.

That everytime you take meds or handle a knife , the prospect of dying seem much more appealing then to keep losing your sanity.

Yet all you wish, is for one of those you have ever loved to show you affection again. Even if it means they'd bring you to a hospital ward to lock you up and only come see you once every two weeks.

Welcome to my hell