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7 years ago
So, i got the promotion and my salary is getting close to being almost a descent living wage... should get there in a year are two i guess.
On vacation this week and will be trying to setup my office space so i can work from home some!
So all in all, work aint to bad.
Love life tho is still a mess... im still in love with someone how doesnt love me back... talk about a constant pattern.
On the other hand... ive been trying to live with my past mistakes and make up for them when i can... tho most people to who i could make up for it doesnt want anything to do with me anymore... so i just live with this never disapearing mountain of accumulated pain on my chest....
And yet when i offer the oportunatly to someone to earn forgivness... and make up for pas mistakes... its not their priority... i guess maybe they just dont give a flying fuck... they didnt give a fuck then ... why would they give a fuck a year later.... or perhaps im the one who cares too much about my actions and their concequences and cant let go? Maybe im the abnormal one who wants to fix my past so that my future feels less heavy... and everyone else just manage to live and not to care about what they did and who they affected.... its getting so commun now that i really think im the abnormal one... i should stop carring.
The more time passes the more im telling myself humanity should blow itself up ... if were now at the point that no one is responsible for their actions and no ones feel like they need to fix past mistakes .... why bother .
So... thats it for now... some ups, some downs i guess.
On vacation this week and will be trying to setup my office space so i can work from home some!
So all in all, work aint to bad.
Love life tho is still a mess... im still in love with someone how doesnt love me back... talk about a constant pattern.
On the other hand... ive been trying to live with my past mistakes and make up for them when i can... tho most people to who i could make up for it doesnt want anything to do with me anymore... so i just live with this never disapearing mountain of accumulated pain on my chest....
And yet when i offer the oportunatly to someone to earn forgivness... and make up for pas mistakes... its not their priority... i guess maybe they just dont give a flying fuck... they didnt give a fuck then ... why would they give a fuck a year later.... or perhaps im the one who cares too much about my actions and their concequences and cant let go? Maybe im the abnormal one who wants to fix my past so that my future feels less heavy... and everyone else just manage to live and not to care about what they did and who they affected.... its getting so commun now that i really think im the abnormal one... i should stop carring.
The more time passes the more im telling myself humanity should blow itself up ... if were now at the point that no one is responsible for their actions and no ones feel like they need to fix past mistakes .... why bother .
So... thats it for now... some ups, some downs i guess.
