I give up.... Depression won. Made me lose all that was good in my life and can't tell anyone about how i feel because all i get as anwsers are "get over it and pull yourself together" and those that are the most important to me just runs away.

In the end, i saw specialists, psychologists, doctors, crisis centers , ect. In the end, there is nothing to do. You can't rectify wrongs if people are gone or just uninterested. I lost everything .... Three times...

The world we live in is sick and rotting ... And i have no intensions in leting myself rot. I'll enjoy the time i have left on unemployment insuurance then i'll die with a bang.