so what do you guys think of holidays? To me they fucking suck, got no family to really spend them with cause they're too broken or far away, no friends to hang with cause they're with family or other friends, and I never have anyone special to celebrate them with. The only holiday I like is Halloween cause I get to be creative and scare the shit out of people so that's fun.

Also if you have feelings for someone and you're trying to move past them, how are you suppose to do that if you keep seeing things that would point toward the opposite? Kinda bullshit if you ask me since it's difficult enough already. Don't want to mess things up with said individual cause he is an awesome friend and I need more friends like him but what can you do? *shurgs*

Also how do you approach someone who treats you friendly in front of people but then when no one is around or it's online they don't act like a friend at all? Any suggestions?

Let's see, trying to think of things since I'm sure this is going to give me a lot of flack from people if certain people read this (which is highly unlikely anyway but still) ummm... job is ok since the boss' like me a bunch, fuck the dicks who don't cause they don't mean shit. Also I'm typing this while getting drunk so I may swear some if you haven't noticed already. Did I mention I hate all holidays except for Halloween? Got a ref sheet by oh people ignore me or cast me aside for other people, also I feel like I come second to everyone or anything.

Heh I can see the repercussions of this journal but I need an outlet or I'm going to explode so here you go let's see, got little money to do anything which is why I'm not with family right now. Or friends for that matter. Oh, people not taking me seriously when I ask things on FB or FA. I think that's about it for now, stay tuned for more bitching though