/personalrant
...I'm really going to get on the ball with commissions and stuff.
I can admit that I've really been slacking. Granted, I've had a whole bunch of shit going on in my life, but still. I'm slacking.
I've finally gotten on the ball and talked my manager at work because a position became available. I scooped that up, and I'm getting promoted. There is no reason that I shouldn't do that for my artwork, too.
Working is my life. It's the one and only thing I can ever say I'm proud of myself for doing. I take pride in my work, all of my work. I need to start showing it here.

I need to decide once and for all, if art is what I want to do with my life. I've been going around in circles since I was 13 trying to decide if this is the path I want for myself. I've had two colleges constantly contacting me through phone calls, emails, and letters practically begging me to study there. Is it for the tuition money they'd get from me? Most likely. Is it because maybe for once, someone important potentially sees some talent in me? Who the hell knows. I won't know until I can see some talent I'm proud of in myself.
/endopersonalrant



ANYWAY. Back to the original statement I was going for here, which does relate to my rant. After I finish my tail raffle, I will not be offering any more freebies, requests, gift art, etc. (only for good friends)

If I really want to go somewhere with art, I need to learn that giving it away does not bring you customers. It brings you people that know you're the type of person to give away free stuff, and they know you'll likely do it again so they stick around. I want to earn my keep here. If it doesn't work out here, it doesn't work out. Then I'll know I'm not cut out for it. My artwork may not be the best, but I throw my all into it, and everyone knows it. It's time to get myself going here.



Now to sit here until tomorrow morning and play Tera until I can't see straight.