Seems I am not the only one having a rough time as of late then, eh? *Sighs and snuggles up close, nuzzling at your shoulder* You know... though we talk on the phone some... we cannot have adventures over voice... well... I suppose we COULD, but... that would just be quite silly... *Scoots a bit closer, sides together and head still on your shoulder* I miss you as well... in spite of our talks... I miss you... I miss Sili... I miss our adopted ones... I would say I miss others, but... unfortunately my views on everyone else are all mixed... You guys are my core of friends... well.. you guys and probably my friend Tales who you may or may not have met. *Shakes head* I do what I can in terms of hunting for a job to help, but... I feel so very restricted with Anthony here and with my computer down... my family, much as they claim to love the little guy, do not seem fond of watching him so I can job hunt... though, in truth, my pickings are still quite slim... I need to find work in a neighboring town... my hometown is small and I've worked many of the jobs here anyways... But... the library has such limits with net use... and my gas will not last forever... feels like my world is just closing in... on top of all the sadness you've been reading in my journal as of late... I am sorry if I have seemed distant from you... it has felt that way, even with the talking, and I do not mean it to. But you know... I think the problem is that I do not feel I can be as intimate in my conversations with you with my sister there, ya know? I mean... I can still say I love you and stuff, but... just feels... awkward, ya know? x.x;; At any rate... short version? I think we need more us time... and I hope we're not robbed of it entirely when you go back to school... during which time I'm sure you'll still be working too... v.v I will miss you... probably more than I do now, but... I know that, for things to progress, these things must be done... painful as they may be. *Slips arms around you and hugs tight* I'll stand by you regardless... and look forward to my every opportunity with you. *Clings gently* I love you, Thareal-Ithnal~ Always...

*Hugs warmly, nuzzling at you as well* Yea, with a lot on my mind and the impending future of what needs to be done over the next 36 weeks it has been a bit of a weight. But even between school and work, I know we will be able to make time for each other. I am completely certain of that, for we are strong. Then, when school is over, and the future lies before us? Who knows what will happen? As for the job, one should certainly never stop looking, but given the current situation, focus on your little one and the sisters you love, and when we have you hooked back up to the world, grind for a job, assuming you are ready to go have one. I've still not met Tales, I feel we should fix that when next we can~?

There is that slight distant feel, but given the comp-less-ness and having to use the Wii to log onto FA, it is understood. I know you are dealing with a lot right now, so venting in a journal is actually doing you a bit of good, neh? Later tonight, we can certainly call when no one is around, and let it be just the two of us, I think we'd both much like that~ Not just need more us time, but very much want it ^.=.^ *he runs a hand through your hair warmly as he hugs a little tighter* As ever through it all, I love you, my Alun-Ithnal~<3

Well... my mother won''t let me simply relax around the house tending my little one... she wants me out job hunting... the last time I needed a job, the deal was two jobs per day... and, thus far, seems to be keeping her at bay this time around as well. I slip off to the library to job hunt, much as I have at this moment, but that isn't always easy due to my sisters not really caring to watch the little guy... even as I left today, they said I should bring him with me since he was fussing at the time, however, I told them it's about impossible to have a little one here, especially mine with as noisy as he tends to get. Still... managed to get them to watch him AND their movie, so... hopefully that goes smoothly... as for the job... I believe I'll be hunting around as soon as I'm done posting back to you here... still... only time will tell on everything and it seems I am already (Albeit quite a bit prematurely) counting down the days until I can get out of this house and be able to spend what I feel is much-needed time with you. My focus is this job hunt, my little one, and doing what I can to stick to the workout thing so I'm more okay with myself come time to see you. >w<;;

Hmm... thinking on it now, I may have a way you can call the house phone... what I believe we shall do is I can have the house phone call my cell phone, thus making no sound, and then you can call the house phone, which the only noise heard will be right in my ear as we have a second line on the phone. Assuming I can get it to all work out properly, we can still talk on the house phone (Thus not wasting any of my few precious minutes) without making any loud ringing, as their is a phone in every room of the house. x.x;;; At any rate... all something we can look into later tonight, I imagine... I'll let you know one way or the other when to call, but be sure to be quick on the uptake as I WILL still likely be wasting my minutes having the house phone call my cell. x.x;;; That all having been said, I have high hopes for tonight, and we shall simply have to see how things go, I suppose. If my sister tries calling you, feel free to ignore it, since we have these plans in place. That way she is more likely to go to bed sooner, and we can have actual privacy/intimacy for a change. I love you too, Thareal-Ithnal~ And I look forward to seeing you again soon. ^3^ ~<3

durp, forgot to reply to yours so you get the message indicator. See below~

I have faith in your ability to find work, even with your kit requiring your loving attention ^.=.^ If it will sweeten the deal any, you can offer your sister time with Tales in exchange for watching your little one. She might simply swoon and fall over saying yes in a breathy, "taken" tone ^.=.~ Take it slow and find work that will be stable and supportive, not some dead-end 7.25 an hour that offers you no room to grow. When I took my job, I was being paid minimum, but there was a very high ceiling for me to clamber over the less apt workers to get to. Which I did. I have plateaued for now, given my age, but they would have me as a manager in a heartbeat~ So long as you keep to the regiment, you will see change, that much is certain. Since I last took count, I am down from 180 to 173! 7lb loss for the win!

At any rate, if you want to take to that plan, I gladly would, or you could call me from your house phone, and I can pick up. No harm no foul~ I do dear hope to hear from you tonight and cannot wait to hear your voice in my ear once more~<3 I love you hun, and good luck!

Not sure... she hates it when he's crying/screaming... she's the one that voiced not wanting to watch him while I was out. x.x And grats on the weight loss, Hun... I must admit, I have not been keeping to it nightly, simply because of the ache. However, tonight I shall pick it up again before bed. That much I am certain of. :3 I'll do what I can in the job department, but it is good to hear you are doing well at least in the job you have... and managerial experience is always quite nice. <3 I have to bear in mind that this job likely won't be permanent either, since I'll be relocating myself down there in approximately a years time if all works out. >w< *Fingers crossed* Even so... only time will tell, I imagine. Regardless of the when I visit, my sister wishes to tag along so she can meet Tales. xD We'll see how that goes when we have some sort of more definite time-table on it, I imagine.

OMIGOSH~! Youz moving out around here in a year~~~? Do tell plans, please~! I'd love to know and if I could help in any way at all!