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13 years ago
Same Shit, Different Day.....
And I looked into the abyss as the final days of my summer ended. Yup, on Wednesday the 5th, I officially start my senior year of high-school. Let's re-cap how fucking shitty last year was:
1. I started my junior year still depressed about my uncle's (who I never really got the chance to properly know) death from cancer the year before; and then, half-way through the year, my grandpa (who was stricken with Alzheimer's since I was 5, so when I was finally old enough to have common knowledge and get to know him better, he could never understand who I was) suddenly and unexpectedly passed away. The shock left me in denial and so emotionally depleted, I couldn't even bring myself to cry while I was accepting the truth.
2. I was constantly having fights and arguments with my parents, sometimes about my grades, sometimes about my aggressive pessimistic attitude, and sometimes about absolute bullshit. It was still emotionally painful.
3. I almost failed two primary classes, which would've meant summer school.
4. At one point, I actually had a double emotional/nervous breakdown and went certifiably insane for a short period.
This year WILL go better than last year; no more D's on my grade transcript, no more procrastinating with important classes (hell, I only have FIVE classes out of EIGHT periods to attend), and no more cliched drama at home with my family. I'm sick of that shit and I would like to get along with my parents for a change. Also, I'm going to start taking the psychiatric therapy my parents make me do more seriously; after all, it's pretty obvious I need help.
On the brighter side of this journal, I got into my AP Art class with the great art teacher I had last year who helped me a lot. I also managed to get a 'Late Arrival' on Odd Block days and 'Early Dismissal' on both Even and Odd Block days; (my school splits its 8 class periods into 4 hour-and-a-half long classes per day; Odd Block: Periods 1,3,5,7 ; Even Block: Periods 2,4,6,8). This means I have more time to get work done faster after school, which means I can work on art and upload more often.
P.S. I know most of this journal feels like a pity party, which is obviously annoying to many of you. But, I'm just venting for the sake of venting; NONE OF YOU HAVE TO TAKE ANYTHING FROM THIS JOURNAL'S DEPRESSING CONTEXT OR LEAVE ANY COMMENTS RELATING TO SAID CONTEXT, WHETHER THOSE COMMENTS BE NICE OR RUDE!
Speaking of art, I never got any replies on that last journal I posted, asking if I owe any of you watching me some promised gift art, trade art, or requested art. PLEASE, LEAVE ME A COMMENT HERE IF I OWE ANY OF YOU ARTWORK! I DON'T LIKE BEING IN THE DARK ABOUT SUCH THINGS, AND I WANT TO KEEP THE PROMISES I MADE TO YOU GUYS!!!
As far as I know, I owe art to:
REQUESTS-->
zachtehshadowwolf (Artwork Content: confirmed; Sketchwork: still in the "prototype" stage; Inked Lineart: not started)
TRADES-->
syrahfairbairn (Artwork Content: waiting for your content specifications so I know what you want me to draw)
GIFT ART-->
remember, gift art info & rules are here---> http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3813233/
1. I started my junior year still depressed about my uncle's (who I never really got the chance to properly know) death from cancer the year before; and then, half-way through the year, my grandpa (who was stricken with Alzheimer's since I was 5, so when I was finally old enough to have common knowledge and get to know him better, he could never understand who I was) suddenly and unexpectedly passed away. The shock left me in denial and so emotionally depleted, I couldn't even bring myself to cry while I was accepting the truth.
2. I was constantly having fights and arguments with my parents, sometimes about my grades, sometimes about my aggressive pessimistic attitude, and sometimes about absolute bullshit. It was still emotionally painful.
3. I almost failed two primary classes, which would've meant summer school.
4. At one point, I actually had a double emotional/nervous breakdown and went certifiably insane for a short period.
This year WILL go better than last year; no more D's on my grade transcript, no more procrastinating with important classes (hell, I only have FIVE classes out of EIGHT periods to attend), and no more cliched drama at home with my family. I'm sick of that shit and I would like to get along with my parents for a change. Also, I'm going to start taking the psychiatric therapy my parents make me do more seriously; after all, it's pretty obvious I need help.
On the brighter side of this journal, I got into my AP Art class with the great art teacher I had last year who helped me a lot. I also managed to get a 'Late Arrival' on Odd Block days and 'Early Dismissal' on both Even and Odd Block days; (my school splits its 8 class periods into 4 hour-and-a-half long classes per day; Odd Block: Periods 1,3,5,7 ; Even Block: Periods 2,4,6,8). This means I have more time to get work done faster after school, which means I can work on art and upload more often.
P.S. I know most of this journal feels like a pity party, which is obviously annoying to many of you. But, I'm just venting for the sake of venting; NONE OF YOU HAVE TO TAKE ANYTHING FROM THIS JOURNAL'S DEPRESSING CONTEXT OR LEAVE ANY COMMENTS RELATING TO SAID CONTEXT, WHETHER THOSE COMMENTS BE NICE OR RUDE!
Speaking of art, I never got any replies on that last journal I posted, asking if I owe any of you watching me some promised gift art, trade art, or requested art. PLEASE, LEAVE ME A COMMENT HERE IF I OWE ANY OF YOU ARTWORK! I DON'T LIKE BEING IN THE DARK ABOUT SUCH THINGS, AND I WANT TO KEEP THE PROMISES I MADE TO YOU GUYS!!!
As far as I know, I owe art to:
REQUESTS-->
zachtehshadowwolf (Artwork Content: confirmed; Sketchwork: still in the "prototype" stage; Inked Lineart: not started)TRADES-->
syrahfairbairn (Artwork Content: waiting for your content specifications so I know what you want me to draw)GIFT ART-->
remember, gift art info & rules are here---> http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3813233/
