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Waking up from imperfection...
17 years ago
I had a rather disturbing dream tonight...or this morning rather, since it was noon by the time I noticed I was sleeping with eyes open. I just got up, so it's still quite clear in my head and I'd like to hear your opinion on it.
There is a girl I've had an interest in for quite a while now and a few months back I tried my luck, but failed, because she fell for someone else who had big advantages due to certain circumstances (won't go into detail here).
Needless to say, that hurt pretty bad, which is one of the reasons I was a little unproductive back then.
So anyhow, in tonights dream she was apparently single again and sleeping over at my place for some unknown reason and we're getting ready for sleep. I go brush my teeth and she climbs up on the "ledge" (for this you have to know that my dad built in a sort of second floor into my room 10 years ago, which has been my bed ever since. Nice and secluded from everything.).
While I brush my teeth, the apparently new boyfriend of my mom comes in (no, she doesn't have one and hasn't for ages), who looks like the classic bearded from some wild west movie, and we have a semi-conservative discussion about various relationship topics, while I'm brushing teeth.
I'm done, we part and I come back to my room to find my laptop open on my hobby-table and cables leading upstairs to a beamer that's standing on the railing.
Upon my arrival upstairs I find my love intrest cuddled up with a short guy who looks like the cousin of a good friend of mine (I get along well with either of them), and a projection of a picture posed similarily to my "two otters" picture of Bryn and Keman on the opposite wall to the ladder (I note here that that doesn't fit the description of her current boyfriend at all, I must confess that I haven't met him thogh, but this is to her own accounts).
They seemed to be sleeping, so I climbed up, hurt and perplexed, and curled to have room for them, because they were sleeping at the feet of both matraces.
A moment later they ask me if I want either matrace and we settle down normally, me on one, them on the other.
When I wake, she's gone and he's left there. He seems contempt enough and I greet him a little grumpily from just waking and the obvious, and he asks me what was wrong, but didn't seem to have taken any notice or offense towards him from my attitude.
Then there's two endings.
In one of them I told him that he was occupying my place last night.
In the second one it restarts where I wake up and gets to the point where he asks me what's wrong, but I don't get to finish that, because that's where my eyes realize they are recieving actual light while I'm sleeping...and so I woke for real, about half an hour ago.
So yeah, strange dream thing...gimme your words on it.
Imma go shower now and have a few more good thoughts about it myself...
Also: I promise to have a propper journal up again some day soon.
There is a girl I've had an interest in for quite a while now and a few months back I tried my luck, but failed, because she fell for someone else who had big advantages due to certain circumstances (won't go into detail here).
Needless to say, that hurt pretty bad, which is one of the reasons I was a little unproductive back then.
So anyhow, in tonights dream she was apparently single again and sleeping over at my place for some unknown reason and we're getting ready for sleep. I go brush my teeth and she climbs up on the "ledge" (for this you have to know that my dad built in a sort of second floor into my room 10 years ago, which has been my bed ever since. Nice and secluded from everything.).
While I brush my teeth, the apparently new boyfriend of my mom comes in (no, she doesn't have one and hasn't for ages), who looks like the classic bearded from some wild west movie, and we have a semi-conservative discussion about various relationship topics, while I'm brushing teeth.
I'm done, we part and I come back to my room to find my laptop open on my hobby-table and cables leading upstairs to a beamer that's standing on the railing.
Upon my arrival upstairs I find my love intrest cuddled up with a short guy who looks like the cousin of a good friend of mine (I get along well with either of them), and a projection of a picture posed similarily to my "two otters" picture of Bryn and Keman on the opposite wall to the ladder (I note here that that doesn't fit the description of her current boyfriend at all, I must confess that I haven't met him thogh, but this is to her own accounts).
They seemed to be sleeping, so I climbed up, hurt and perplexed, and curled to have room for them, because they were sleeping at the feet of both matraces.
A moment later they ask me if I want either matrace and we settle down normally, me on one, them on the other.
When I wake, she's gone and he's left there. He seems contempt enough and I greet him a little grumpily from just waking and the obvious, and he asks me what was wrong, but didn't seem to have taken any notice or offense towards him from my attitude.
Then there's two endings.
In one of them I told him that he was occupying my place last night.
In the second one it restarts where I wake up and gets to the point where he asks me what's wrong, but I don't get to finish that, because that's where my eyes realize they are recieving actual light while I'm sleeping...and so I woke for real, about half an hour ago.
So yeah, strange dream thing...gimme your words on it.
Imma go shower now and have a few more good thoughts about it myself...
Also: I promise to have a propper journal up again some day soon.
waffled will cheer you up. go have some :)
:p
this one is a tangled one, so I can't really say.
but yeah, this is a weird one. Then again, if it makes you feel better my mom had a dream about my sister being chased by a dog. Mom wanted to go kick the dog or something, but wanted me to be safe first o.o so she was arguing with me to try and get me to stand on a car (how that would make me safe from a dog, I'm not sure) so she can go kick it <_<; there have been other weird ones, but thats the one I remember best.
The fact that you were talking to your mother's boyfriend about relationships while brushing your teeth could mean that when the topic of relationships comes up, you feel the need to "clean up" what you are saying. You censor yourself from saying what you really feel.
Often times dreaming about a love interest especially of the opposite sex is a representation of that side of your personality. The fact that you want to get with this person but you are stopped by the presence of this other person could mean that you are wanting to get in more in touch with your feminine side and emotions like feelings or love, caring, etc. but something is getting in the way.
Again, though, this is only a possible interpretation. You are the only person who can say for sure what your dream means.
Going to sleep in your dream can mean having a desire to renew yourself. the fact that you wake up with your female half missing could mean that you feel that you need to let that part of yourself go for the moment, but the fact that that part of you is gone saddens you.
As for the reset in the dream, I am not sure what that means, but it happens frequently to me. Typically, what I feel when it happens though is that the dream didn't happen the way that it was supposed to, so it resets to say "that's not right." Alternatively it could mean that you are searching for another way to deal with the situation, perhaps hoping there is a way to move forward with your female side there rather than gone, or finding the best way to respond to that.
Again, only a possible interpretation, it could be way off.