It's confirmed...they did the biopsy and my aunt in fact has cancer. I learned this yesterday...and it's an aggressive form of cancer. It's not terminal, from my understanding, but they have to be extremely vigilant to ensure it doesn't keep spreading.

To anyone that has commented on my previous journals, I'm very sorry I haven't responded to anything. To those that have watched me that are new, I'm even more sorry that you have to see me like this. I'm usually more optimistic than this, and usually try to help others...but right now, I'm in dire need of help. This scares me...it terrifies me greatly...and I need a lot of support on this...I probably won't talk much at all, then again I haven't talked much on here anyway. I haven't responded to anything outside of a note for more than a month...and I'm very sorry about that...I'm just very lost right now...

I've been taking control of my grandmother's business for the time being. I've had to ensure the phones are answered and the men actually do everything to keep working until we close for the season, if not permanently (which is becoming the reality now). This means, I'm not going to have a job. I know I'm not going to be able to handle much of a job in the workforce. This means, I'm going to have to actually get myself on track for things.

Starting now, until the end of November, I will be taking orders on poems. I'll charge $1 per poem, unlimited number of slots. You must pre-pay for these, so I don't have to worry about payment after the fact. You pick the subject, and I'll write it. My short story commissions are on hold for now, because those need a lot more time in working on. I notice that I'm much better with poems, so I can probably get them out in a day or two, depending on my time.

I have all my information on my site, at http://ashanriuwriting.com so just go there and have a look. My poem samples are in my FA gallery, so just click on that tab and check.

The reason I'm doing this is because I really need funds now. My student loans are kicking in, my Parent PLUS loan is already forcing me to pay money, and they want over $500 by December 6th. I don't have that kind of money, and that's in addition to my Sprint bill. What I'll probably end up doing is getting out of my Sprint contract (which will take a lot of money alone) and deferring the PLUS loan and my other student loans, since I don't have a job at all come the end of November (unless through some shear miracle we're still working).

I don't know what else to do...I'm sorry I'm not really active here, I'm much more active through texting or Google+...I've just had so much on my mind, and not enough time to process everything. This has been the worst year, not for me, but for my entire family...I'm struggling to make it just with them, so any amount helps...if you're willing to help, then please do so...I'll do my best to provide what I can. I have to do something right now...this is all I know how to do...

I love you all...I'm sorry that I have to sound so depressing so often on here, I don't mean to...I appreciate everyone on here...I just have it really rough...Thanks to those who have read this, it means a lot to me...