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13 years ago
Hello everyone,
The last couple of days have been hard for me. On Thursday afternoon around 5:00 pm an old friend from college called me. I talk to her often, she was one of my first friends in college. She has some horrible news, her fiancé shot himself in the head on Sunday night (Jan. 27). Unfortunately she was the one to find him. Why he did I don't want to get into right now. This has really struck me heavily. Everything in my life has gone a reexamination twice over, trying to determine what is really important. I have been clinging with my friend and others, just so I know they are OK and still here. I've been wondering about my job, how much I hate the place I work for and if I'm really just chasing a dog that is never gonna bark. I've looked to the heavens, regaining my spiritually health was a new year's resolution of mine but this is not what I wanted to do it with. (Sorry I usually don't get religious here but these are my inner emotions coming out) The funeral is this Saturday, I hoping to go. This is first person I've had to bury, I'm blessed enough to still have all 4 of my grandparents for the time being. The hardest thing is that once this is over I'm never going to see him again. I will be just walking down the street and see him, he's gone.
In other news, I love my new
kalida sketch. (need some good news on this journal) I came home on Friday to see her open right as I logged on. I usually wait for payday or something but I needed a pick me up badly. The result brought a much needed smile to my face and kinda snapped me out of the majority of what's been going on. She did a great job on it and I'm glad to see it got so many favorites thanks guys. Maybe I will get more cu...err...adorable art stuff in the future.
Thanks for reading,
KaGe
The last couple of days have been hard for me. On Thursday afternoon around 5:00 pm an old friend from college called me. I talk to her often, she was one of my first friends in college. She has some horrible news, her fiancé shot himself in the head on Sunday night (Jan. 27). Unfortunately she was the one to find him. Why he did I don't want to get into right now. This has really struck me heavily. Everything in my life has gone a reexamination twice over, trying to determine what is really important. I have been clinging with my friend and others, just so I know they are OK and still here. I've been wondering about my job, how much I hate the place I work for and if I'm really just chasing a dog that is never gonna bark. I've looked to the heavens, regaining my spiritually health was a new year's resolution of mine but this is not what I wanted to do it with. (Sorry I usually don't get religious here but these are my inner emotions coming out) The funeral is this Saturday, I hoping to go. This is first person I've had to bury, I'm blessed enough to still have all 4 of my grandparents for the time being. The hardest thing is that once this is over I'm never going to see him again. I will be just walking down the street and see him, he's gone.
In other news, I love my new
kalida sketch. (need some good news on this journal) I came home on Friday to see her open right as I logged on. I usually wait for payday or something but I needed a pick me up badly. The result brought a much needed smile to my face and kinda snapped me out of the majority of what's been going on. She did a great job on it and I'm glad to see it got so many favorites thanks guys. Maybe I will get more cu...err...adorable art stuff in the future.Thanks for reading,
KaGe
Mortality is worth thinking about, but most of the things that force us to deal with it aren't very happy. I hope you find a way to deal with this wrinkle of the world that helps when the next one comes along.