Yes...I'm sorry to everyone for this, but I believe it's official. I must take my leave from this place. I know some will say that I'm trying to get attention, or some other random excuse, but I assure you, I don't plan on coming back. I have a LOT of reasons for this, and I could go into extreme detail with all of them, but instead I'll just make a summary on the few points I feel are worth sharing.

1. The administration. I've heard a lot of horrible things about the site administration, and it's disgusting. This place is not a good place to be. The majority of people I've met here have been wonderful, but I've heard too many horror stories, and while I've not had any personal problems with any administrator, I cannot remain on a site that is so willing to toss someone's safety or well-being aside, simply because "it doesn't involve anyone on staff."

2. I don't come on here much anyway. I'm more active in places like Google+ or Twitter. Hell, I even paid $20 just to get on Weasyl early, as I saw its potential before its creation (I was trying to create something similar, actually, but I lacked funding and any technical skills to fully accomplish it). As such, considering how much better Weasyl is compared to here, it makes much more sense to go there, instead of waiting for site updates that still haven't addressed an SQL injection problem that has existed before I even became a furry.

3. A few people, I've witnessed, are so far out of touch with what my vision of them once was, that it's alarming. I'm not naming names on this, so don't even ask if it's you. If you are serious about self-improvement, find it on your own. I've offered my hand to others, and I've done my best with all that I have. If you refuse to see what your flaws are, then there is no point in me trying to help. If you want to change yourself for the better, then do something about it instead of insulting others just because you're unhappy. Change yourself instead of sitting there, bitching and whining because someone else has something you no longer have. If you give a damn about any respect from anyone, then maybe you can save yourself before your own vision is destroyed.

4. This place is so dead to me, I can't even enjoy anything on here without seeing pain. Why should I subject myself to the complaints of others, about how horrible they have it, when I'm already going through my own pain? I've learned a lot in the 4+ years I've been a fur. It has taught me many things, and one lesson that has finally sunk in, is that I shouldn't be online just to vent, and only vent. I shouldn't talk to people just because I want to escape from my hell of a life. I should talk to people in order to truly understand them and have fun with them. I need to deal with my issues on my own. Yes, friends can help be a shoulder to cry on, or a strong hug in my moment of pain and misery, but they aren't there just for me to feel better. They're there to have fun as well. And if I can't have fun with my friends, then my friends won't want to have fun with me, because there won't be any fun.

5. I no longer see any value in clinging to this place. Yes...not one redeeming quality. None. Yes, I have friends here, and I love the friends I have here...but let's be realistic...I don't even come here that often...and even then, I don't get to see much of those I talk to when I am around. I thought this place was nice, and that I could build up a nice set of friends. And I did...but there's too much negativity here anymore. I've probably distanced myself, and I'll admit as such...I just had a lot of other things I needed to focus on. But even at that, I can't handle much negativity. This place is filled with it, to the point I can't handle being here any longer. I need to let go of the things that don't help me heal. I need to let go of the things that do not serve me at all. My friends do serve me, they love me and care about me...but this site is replaceable...and my friends can follow me somewhere else, if they so choose.




With that, I feel there are only a few things I can do now. To anyone wishing to stay in touch, I have a few places and means for which we can. I have Google+ and Twitter, like I said above. My Google+ profile is located at https://plus.google.com/u/0/117834359216544657341 while my Twitter profile is at http://twitter.com/ashanriu

Weasyl: https://www.weasyl.com/profile/ashanriu
SoFurry: http://ashanriu.sofurry.com/

Email: raiok(at)ashanriuwriting*dot*com

If none of these options are available to you, then I really don't know what to tell you. I'm not going to use an IM client, as I get busy and can't always talk right when someone expects me to. Besides, posts in different places are easier for me to reply to. I do have a phone, and I can use it to text, but I'm not always comfortable in just handing that out unless I know someone that well.



I'm sorry that it has come to this. I figured it would happen in a matter of time, but I do wish things could've been solved more easily. It's honestly a shame that it couldn't. I'll miss all of you, especially the ones that can't contact me in any other way. I really wish I could do more to show I care...but as it stands, circumstances have changed...I need to look towards the future, and bettering myself...hanging onto things that aren't going to help me, are just going to cause more harm to me in the long run. I hope you all understand...and if you don't, then I'm sorry...but I will be okay...I've made it this far with everyone that cares about me...I love everyone...I've been hurt and in pain a lot...but I've made it this far...my friends have guided me...and I've let some people down along the way, but I'm still doing what I can to be kind...I've done what I can here...this is the end of the line for me, on this site...I hope at least some of you will follow me somewhere else.


Until our paths cross again...

--Sammonaran/Raiok/Ashanriu/Wasdramer