I'm already getting tired of it ...
Honestly, I try, but it seems the more I try, the more I failed, but I'm not discouraged by that, because for me, nothing was easy and I learned to deal with the difficulties that appeared me.

I am a kind of person that when I see a person in need of help, help will always, always, regardless of who is ... I try to help a friend of mine who owns a firm Hardware in town where I live, is not that far from my house, but it's a hard time to get there, do my paper work, I try to help people who go looking it, usually to repair or resolve problems relating to their computers, not that I'm criticizing the, but he already made ​​me a slutty to me, and this is not the first time.

I always do my job, do not charge anything for it, but he should consider me for what I am doing for him, well, it all started when I asked him to give me some broken equipment and already very old, they have virtually had no role in any room, except be occupying unnecessary space.

You know what he did, just throwing it all away, I let this pass, because at the time, he said he had forgotten on my part and I do not always care for it, I will not get angry if someone ignore me or end up forgetting a commitment, or say completely forget.

What's worse is that now he did it again, and I had asked him to give me back some parts because I was precissando some boards and pieces for me to fix some cards from some friends who asked me to check their equipment (which is one way I have found to try and win some money, well, nobody can live without money, God exists, he is amazing, because thanks to him, I do not know what I would do, because here I always give mom and a knack (so that hardly could make it) ... is even a milhagre can hold with only $ 10.00 per day, this is insignificate, how to survive with only $ 10.00 per day.
Well, cutting it and going straight to the point:
He did it again, and what's worse, he had my phone, honestly, I said I was needing these parts, it pisses me off, not that I'm being selfish, but I think he'll be being used as an idiot, he is mistaken, I am not for revenge, but how can I help a person who makes me in hand, and what is worse, he still said he thought of me calling, but returned ago. That is, I want to help, but does not return the favor, even more that I'm also with my computer without the BIOS, and I told him I needed these parts.

Damn, but that $ @ p ..> x *, honestly I try not to lose my head but it just happens that FX # * .... I need to scream, scratch my claws on something, punch something, Anyway is not the worst of evils, my Father, especiamente is not very type of being on the side, he is a person, closed, think the whole universe is bound to turn around, think that all people should fear him, on top is a macho @ @ #% $ && ¨, and in the end, it seeks to help in any way, yet some think, many times he discusses with me and his mother, even though he was wrong or being wrong, he is still a victim, I'm already tired of it, he &% $ #.

And to further complicate matters, I am looking for a job, but so far nothing, absolutely nothing, my hope is that my sister's boyfriend showed me a friend of his who want to set up a technical assistance on computers and is the perfect place, hopefully that works.

And to make matters worse, moreover, almost lost faith in true friendship, I do not know what happened, my best friend moved away from me, he does not avoid me directly, he withdrew completely from me and my family, avoids even look for me and my mom when we met occasionally in the street, that he was a nice person who liked to spend a few moments here and I also loved to spend a few moments at home, nobody knew or showed some kind of hatred or rejection.

I'm trying to recover again, do not believe in friends, I'm still trying not to think about it, I got to the point I almost totally desacreditei in people, but after much thought, I saw no point getting depressed or grievances without even being ready, the way was trying to get back to reality and try to continue with my life, I'm not even going there if he needs me, so he did not have forgiveness, I perdou, but I do not want to even know that he exists and if he needs me, I will not help you, but will help you if it is a matter of life and death, nothing more.

I think I'm too nice, too honest in my opinions, too weak to accept that life can be terrible, it takes me to get scared, but we must continue at any cost.

Honestly, I do not like talking about my private life to anybody, and you also do not like to talk, after all life is our life, what really matters are people who truly care us who care. Our life is our life. Do not really like talking about my life. If so, what led me to open my mouth?

All I want is just to vent, otherwise I'll end up
exploding, and my evil, is that when I'm stressed, I behave almost like a lizard dangerous ... I try to avoid, but everyone has a bad side, and that associated with various events and occasions, eventually becomes a time bomb ready to explode, all I want is to put all this feeling of anger out, do not want to stay with Therefore, a good friend of mine who told me that life is a little guy who loves irritating to kick our asses much violence, always trying to make us fall flat on his face, and the worst is that he still laugh at our situation. Anyway, I try to isolate myself, avoid doing harm unintentionally, when we are well, we are capable of any bullshit, because the mind does not think in these times, you no more than an animal totally out of control! When you return to your normal reason, you will have done something terrible, and there will be too late ...

 As I said before, nobody likes to talk about his life for everyone, because we are trusting our own lives to the attention of strangers, some do not care, other care and try to help without even knowing you, while others, take advantage of this to attack you and hurt you.

Thank you to at least read this, I thank my friends here (although I do not know, but I'm sure they're very nice people). Frankly I'm trusting my life (or at least the main part of it) here.

I always try to participate here, see all, but this is not always possible, I apologize to some people here who have never seen more or forgot visited no more (we all make mistakes, I will not tolerate that help forget what was wrong or what fell ). The true friend is not just one that helps you when you fall, but who stumbles in front of you so that you do not stumble too.

I will not get annoyed if you miss me, I will seek it. I also have no prejudice, no matter, what matters is you being a great person!! A yes, is not indifferent, you should always be honest in your opinion!!

Thank you my friends!

I'll make repeat what I just said, I do not like talking about my personal life, but ended up doing it, I'm exposing myself here, and who is that who will want to open their secrets of his personal life for everyone here ? If I'm doing this is because I'm really needing to vent, is a healthy way of trying to relieve himself of feelings!

I could talk more, then I would have to write a book XD, just wish you guys thank you for everything and all that is good and what is good in the life of you, do not waste it, life is one, do all they want to do, live, enjoy it all!!