I'm struggling with a lot right now. My last month was a bust for job finding. I've got a lot of monotony going on in my life right now. I can't help but feel like Belle a bit right now. Very odd and out of place in this provincial town. Then again if I was in a provincial town i might actually be able to be hired on just being alive. It feels like I'm starting to struggle with depression again part of me just wants to just reach out and scream. I either need a change of scenery for a few years or a trip to try to go and see my dear heart. I want everyone here to know that I've been terrible with my recent set of deadlines for my self on here and it's been tough to get around to doing anything at all. It feels like there just isn't enough time. This moment right now I'm about to start working on my fursona again and not let anything interrupt me other than sleep or food every last distraction will be gone from my mind come the morning shine. I've been holding back on you a little bit as well. I should tell you that I've had a split purpose for a while now. I've got fans of my writing on another site and right now I'm not ready for these two worlds to collide just yet. So part of my delay on my artwork has been me working on writing stories and now you know. To my love if I can still call you that. I keep missing you every day I hope things are alright for you and I want you to know that I still love you with all my heart and I want to try to see you sometime. I... I know that just seems so impossible my dear, but I just once want to show you I care face to face in our own little paradise for as long as it can last. Love you. To my other two watchers, friends, and all around decent people to me. I want you to have the best days to follow year and that everything you do is met with success. Thank you for always being my support while I need it.