I've just had a fight with my parents, they don't listen to me, they don't really care about me, if they could they'd just get rid of me and live their fucking-stupid life because to them I'm the mistake that they made on their lives... I've been wanting to adopt a dog for 5 years now, I wanted either a husky or a border collie or even an Akita, but they don't want me to, they keep saying that I'm nothing but a irresponsible child (and I'm 18 already) and that they wouldn't trust a dog to me, because they think that I'd leave the dog for them to take care, I try to have a dialogue with them, but it's just not worth it! I'm completely lost I don't know what to do, I wish I could live by my own, but I can't. I have depression, some panic attacks and even a dependent personality darangement and they don't give me any support at all, I only have my grandmother on my family that I count on, because the rest are all jerks! I was telling my gramma that I want to die because I can't see a way of overcoming the problems I've been facing and I just know that it won't get better at all and my mother heard that and said "I can bring you some poison if you want to" like I'm just shit to her... I spend my every day-by-day wishing for a miracle that I know that won't happen... I just wish that life was like it is on the video games, you can erase your current save file and start a new one, but unfortunally it isn't... I don't know what to do, I need help... I can't stand this anymore, I just can't, due to the depression it's hard for me to cry, even though I always feel like it, but today the pain was so big that I shattered into a million pieces and finally cried... But it didn't last long, I've already stoped crying, I can't even scream my pain out. I need a dog, but those idiots don't understand that! I'm all alone, I don't have friends, nobody likes me I'm just a freak for everyone, I'm shy and don't like walking outside by myself and I don't have a fucking boyfriend that'd stay with me for more than one month, and everything got worse after I got reproved on the university exam, a dog could help me overcome all of that... A true friend... Maybe that's what I need, but I can't have that because my so-called parents don't like the species I chose. Somebody, anybody... Please, help me, save me before all of this pain drives me insane... Please, I beg... Ease my pain, please... I just wanna be happy...