Alter-Ego Maniac?
17 years ago
General
There's a lot of different stances on the 'fursona' thing, and that's just among those who have one. Some people think they represent themselves on a spiritual level. Others think they're a fun alternate ego with which to artistically cavort in various ways, like any roleplaying character. Still others have them just for the lulz (protip: No, they don't, and this is the weakest excuse to try and still be 'cool' I've ever heard).
But beyond that, I have to wonder something. If a character is essentially you, and you often draw them as the star of a comic, or the focus of humor, or (let's be honest, here) the subject of sexual hijinx/conquests... is there a point where it becomes narcissistic? Is there an appropriate percentage of pictures you can appear in vicariously without it being one big ego-stroke? Is it always a selfish endeavor? Or- with the whole thing being wish-fullfillment anyway- is it never inappopriate?
Your thoughts?
But beyond that, I have to wonder something. If a character is essentially you, and you often draw them as the star of a comic, or the focus of humor, or (let's be honest, here) the subject of sexual hijinx/conquests... is there a point where it becomes narcissistic? Is there an appropriate percentage of pictures you can appear in vicariously without it being one big ego-stroke? Is it always a selfish endeavor? Or- with the whole thing being wish-fullfillment anyway- is it never inappopriate?
Your thoughts?
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...thought I wouldn't turn down having myself drawn in a flattering sexual encounter. Giggity
Then again it isn't Narcissism at all, since Narcissism is when you neglect others in favor of your own beauty/attractiveness/awesomeness.. so drawing a picture or posting a story that strokes your own ego is only as damaging as you let it be?..
That said, I like to consider my character a personal fantasy more than an expression of myself. They are what I want to be, in a way. I have some goals that she's fulfilled, including being alot more comfortable about her body and herself, and so on.
I think you should be more worried about ending up like me. My muse is a sexual entity that I am a little jealous of and who actually inspires me occasionally. :U
And I guess there's also times when you just can't think up original throw-away characters just to tell a small story, or something based on something that really happened to someone's embarassment.
I don't really care if its a bit narcissistic. So is wanting to have sex with yourself. Or is that Incest? Maybe it was just masturbation.
I'm amazing! who wouldn't want to draw me?
1) funny looking people I see outside.
2) stupid shit I find funny.
3) sexual situations I find sexy but never seem to be drawn :P
It's a bit much, but her personality is what I'd like to be. But, considering my body build and just my lack of achieving these things, she can for me.
Plus, I have quite an active imagination- stories and plots always swirl inside my head, until I fall asleep. But even then I always dream.
So, Odette, aka CautionCat, is just an extension of what I wish I could be, and things I might be a little too afraid to do normally.
x) I'm just kiddin'. Honestly, that's a pretty healthy way to look at it, I think.
:P
SUFFER FOR THE ENTERTAINMENT OF THE MASSES! WHOOOOO!!
its part me from the realm called "real life" (physique, hair, clothing style) and partially my fantasy and how i would like to be, this being less scared and more self-confident etc... if i were to make a comic it would mostly be about what i want to be, me being a solid person instead of the flimsy person i am irl so i have at least someone to look up to XD (see it like the "imaginary awesome friend who you look up to because he isnt afraid of anything" but then with your internet reflection)
As for getting him drawn, the only thing keeping me from comissioning more people to draw him i slack of money. :P
Surriously, though. Sometimes, for people like me, a Murrsona's kinda an escape. I have my real life friends, whom I spend most of my time with, and I have my other group of friends, my online friends whom I've met through Tabachi. There's not a change in personality between the two, which could be different for anyone. But I'm just honest like that :P
Plus, you know. Humpahumpahumpahumpahumpa.
At any rate... I'l just stick with my Theory that is depends on who's doing looking and that's how the charater is precived.
I've never looked at Minnie Shoof and said "that is me." Minnie Shoof is a character, and of hir own whims and fancies. Shi has many PARTS of my personality... but I can never look at her and picture myself in the same scenario. It doesn't hurt that I never actually get off to any pictures featuring her or any of my characters.
The second fursona was certainly foundation work for the doctor to come, simultaneously an outlet for gender role exploration as well as a plot mechanism of body alteration which allowed her to explore the needs and wants of the masses. A series of changes effected this character to maintain an outsider stance at one point or another, something which is more recognizable in hindsight than I could confess at the time of play.
This would eventually give way to my current fursona, who while constructed to be a new archetype quickly fell into the habits of the previous fursona when an IC opportunity opened up the doctor path in a game setting of ridiculous super science which lent itself to body modification again. This time the outsider trait would be hermaphroditic, yet when that became too comfortable with the general goings on she has a nasty habit of psychologically enforcing distance.
It seems that the longer I hold onto a character the more my real life personality seeps into it. Although the fursonas seem to remain over-sexualized for the community they exist in, the flexible morals, interpersonal problems and dissatisfied intellectualism remains.
Let me see... Sydak used to represent me, but now he's his own. Umbri is her own. Sneer is his own. Han is his own.
So all that leaves is Teej. Do I really feel that I can be pretty goofy and silly, all the while being pummeled down for not having a true fursona? Sounds rather masochist to me.... Am I? =B
I draw Siege most commonly because A) I know how to do it right (mostly) with consistency. He also fits into most situations, and his reactions are easier for me to determine, since they'd just be my own, whereas some of my other characters that I never really draw would require me to stop and think about what they'd do and/or say.
Plus, when I envision a situation, I envision myself in that situation rather than some other character, so it's only natural to draw myself+(tail+muzzle+horns) in that situation.
To go into the whole "what is the motivation behind it" opens a grand can of worms, (I took a class that boiled down to the fact that even knowing why we do something is utterly impossible, in addition to knowing what truth actually is and basically everything else we know is also impossible to be certain of). In the end it would boil down to the philosophical viewpoint taken when looking at the issue, in all likelihood.
Or would that make it ALWAYS inappropriate? Hmm. Well, I think it varies. I mean, it's always a little narcissistic to draw or have someone else draw your fursona, but that in itself isn't a bad thing. A little narcissism is healthy, since not liking yourself at all would denote serious self-esteem issues.
Now, if it's you drawing your own fursona, then the act of drawing it doesn't mean you have an ego problem. Everyone has their fantasies, and putting them down on paper is just natural if you're an artist.
For the people who are just art whores, however.. I think if someone does that waaaay too much, to the point where the fursona becomes famous simply because there are hundreds of different drawings floating around the internet, then yeah.. that person probably has some ego issues. It's like they're saying, "I'm awesome, and I want YOU to pay tribute to me!".
And either way it can become a serious problem if the artist or art-whore starts taking their own wish-fulfillment fantasies too seriously, and come to believe that they really ARE all that and a bag of chips, and take offense if everyone doesn't bow down and treat them as such.
But hey, that's just my two.. uhh.. rolls of cents. :D
Gues I'm just in it for the bad sex!
It is a bit spiritral with Blade Wyng because of a meditation that I had done in college with a pagan group. The meditation was the "Golden Gown" meditation where as you went into the state, you would feel yourself going down a staircase to where a mirror was. The mirror was/is your soul mirror and when I looked into it, I had seen Blade Wyng. I remember waking up afterwards saying "I have cat ears."
Before that, I would feel a phantom sensation of wings, I still do, and my first ex girlfriend had felt one when I experimented with them to see if I could put one around her shoulders.
Blade Wyng and most of my characters started off as characters in a fan fiction that I had written, then decided to take them to my own sort of world because they evolved past the fan fiction that they were in. Felt like when I was writing what I was, I was writing more for my characters anyways X3
I had Blade Wyng as a name online for a while, then I went to Demented Pixie, though that was to hide from someone who found me anyways. I went back to Blade because it just fit better, even if saying "Hi! I'm Demented!" was fun to say.
It's kind of how I plan my future.