I am still hurt about my ex pulling the plug on our relationship. I was hurt when she wanted an open relationship but I was more hurt when she pulled the plug when I said no. I will be honest if I said yes...I would see her with someone else doing the things I would do to her. Which would kill me. When I said no she said I had a lot to learn not to be jealous and be so possessive. I didn't understand why she would say that. How should say yes to this. I done a lot of nice things for her I buy her games she wanted for christmas even though she says I didn't have to I still do because I LOVE HER. I didn't mind her if she was around guy friends but I hope she tells them she isn't single but I didn't say that. But for her to end it...I still say its her fault and not mine. She hurt me bad when she said fuck you to me. I never said any cuss words to her but she hurt me bad. Then she tumbled about me out of anger so people can read it. Guys I don't know what to do...plus...this months is the worst month to come...Valentines day. Ends it before my birthday now valentines day comes and...I am single. My heart is hurting still here I am trying to move on...I don't know how I can guys. She ended it and I feel like I am the worst boyfriend ever. She didn't say it but I know she is thinking it. I mean...I fucking have two parents who don't get along and they fight like crazy they put me in the middle of it. To be honest every where I go and turn over the years and days of my life I get bad luck. I can never be happy trust me I tried to find ways to be happy. But it ends to disaster. Maybe I deserve it. I don't know what I did to deserve it. I lost someone I loved for 3 years pulls the plug and done. I rather be alone and miserable and I don't care what anyone says there are many fish in the sea and stuff. There isn't any on the hook. My ex was my first...I hate being alone...but I guess I deserve to. For those 3 years we were talking about after college getting married having kids...its what I always wanted...be a good husband a good father...thats my dream. But thats just a dream. And my dreams never really do come true.