While I'm battling COVID and don't worry I'm getting better just something I need to get off my chest.


To those that have watched me or new here I'm putting this out! Cause this is pissing me off and I know I ain't the only person who is going through it.

If your watching me but only cause you love to rp I want to point out I don't want to just rp I love to make friends. I thought I knew this friend but I won't mention the name cause I'm a better person! I tired of that crap! If your reading this you blocked me for no reason! You even said to me I only am doing this rp and nothing more well sorry but you don't know me well. I want friends! That's what I want. Of course I'll rp with you but if you just see me as that that's just hurting me more. I had friends I thought I trusted! I honestly thought you as a friend but I have to get to know you? Even after I told you what I went through? I find out you blocked me when I wanted to fav your oc drawing you posted and it said I'm blocked by you!? Why?

I bet you can't explain it can you!? I'm tired of this bullshit! Had one pretend she had cancer! She didn't so don't worry karma bit her. Then I had a friend like a sister who actually threw away her old friends and family for new ones and had her new ones to tell me to go kill myself.

I suffer with Autism bullied my whole life with social anxiety. There are days where I get panic attacks where I pass out! I never get close friends because I can easily be picked on or walked all over. I try it here and what do I get!? The same fucking results!

I had thoughts of suicide my whole life and I wished this fucking virus had finished me! I'm tired of being treated like I was nothing to you and others who treat me like that!


I don't fucking care anymore! I fucking hate my life! I fucking hate who I am because I always am treated different and thrown away by people here. Especially when they have a fucking life outside when they work hard to pay the bills! You had the choice to say hey you doing alright no you didn't! You didn't! I did! I said hey.

So to my response to those who wrongfully block me because I'm busy plus battling covid! You have a lot to learn about making friends! A lot to learn! I was there for them but they weren't there for me and I don't ask for that but sometimes I wish for it! Is that selfish of me asking to that!?

Fuck the world I don't care anymore I hope I do die because no one would fucking care if I'm gone. I'm having trouble trusting anyone because I feel they will throw me away like a few in the past had. I just got this happened to me today by someone I thought is a friend! Guess I was wrong!

My fault anyway I'm too stupid to trust or even believe there is ounce of humanity in this fucking world!