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high times but feeling down
11 years ago
I had a great day today, i woke up in the bed of someone I love. I went to work at a place i love to work at, my boss was in a great mood and recently he told me that he's moving me to full time. I got to help train and show around a new person, a co-op student. My boss game me a chef jacket yesterday to show me that i'm important in his restaurant. I spent the rest of the day with don and went shopping and he took me to bulk barn and offered to buy me whatever i wanted because he didn't get me any candy for valentine's day. We went shopping at the mall adn went to wal-mart. I rode the bus home and made some of the cranberry tea i got from the bulk barn and used my new tea infuser that i got there.
(looks like this: http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikiped.....in_Infuser.jpg)
all-in all it was a great day.
Why do i just feel like crying. I feel so horrible and there's no reason why.
Its times like tonight where I really think i need to see a therapist and get mental help. Lately I
ve been feeling so down and depressed... i don't understand why.
The co-op student i was training today told me that she's Manic-depressant... I asked her if that was pretty much bipolar disorder and she said it's a variation but only slightly different, meaning that you don't flip flop every couple minutes from happy/normal to super-angry-flipout-mode and more like every few weeks or months you flip from manic (happy, positive and ontop-of-the-world) to depressed (sad, lethargic, unmotivated and.. well, depressed).
Sounds. so much. like. me.
(looks like this: http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikiped.....in_Infuser.jpg)
all-in all it was a great day.
Why do i just feel like crying. I feel so horrible and there's no reason why.
Its times like tonight where I really think i need to see a therapist and get mental help. Lately I
ve been feeling so down and depressed... i don't understand why.
The co-op student i was training today told me that she's Manic-depressant... I asked her if that was pretty much bipolar disorder and she said it's a variation but only slightly different, meaning that you don't flip flop every couple minutes from happy/normal to super-angry-flipout-mode and more like every few weeks or months you flip from manic (happy, positive and ontop-of-the-world) to depressed (sad, lethargic, unmotivated and.. well, depressed).
Sounds. so much. like. me.
My entire personality changes. I go from having boundless amount of energy and going out of my way to do everything that is right and to make people happy to this apathetic and energy sapped person... over the course of a month or so. I think this behavior would be resonable if it was over the course of a day or even a few days. But for me it'se literally a month or two before i switch.
I think trying to cope with it without explanation would not be healthy because without that closure my work, mental health and general well-being will suffer. I'm not looking for sympathy, these hournals rarely get read and sometimes ventig helps me cope