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rollercoaster of life
11 years ago
Okay so i know i quit fa and all but I still like having somewhere to write down my thoughts in the deep web.
Pretty much in my life so far has had it's ups and downs.
I'm trying to quit weed the best i can. It looks like life isn't going to let me do that.
Basically i found that in small, not regular doses it can help relieve my anxiety when I'm about to have a panic attack. Literally like if I'm just about to have a meltdown i can hit a toke and then just watch funny YouTube videos and go to bed.
The bad thing is that I've kind of formed a dependency, and I started smoking whenever my friends were, and then my friends we're just doing it all the time.
Basically, I am strictly saying that i will only smoke when i have to. I am fully aware that i cannot function while it is in my system even the day after. So i can't even hang out with my friends the nightbefore because my retard sister tthinks it's hilarious to blow it in my face even when i said i didn't want any. I really did a terrible job the next day at work so I think that's why my hours might have been a little cut.
Anyways. On the other hand.
A girl likes me? a GIRL likes me? a girl likes ME?
WHAT? It must be a trap.
She's really fucking hot though. I have no idea why she would be any way interested in my sorry ass. Maybe somewhere in my self loathing I ended up looking like a cool guy?
Too bad it was all a set up by my sister. She was so invasive she kept demanding to know if i was going to kiss her and shit. That's not how set up works, you introduce the people and leave it Ay that and hope for the best. It doesn't warrant you to invade my personal life.
On the other hand, My basement flooded. All my stuff including my furnature, My desks, My shelving i keep my art on, my box spring in my bed, My dresser, My computer and pretty much anything that's on the ground all has water damage. My computer was still on and running when i got home from work though, but it was in a 1 inch puddle, thank fucking god I bought a case that had 1 inch legs on it.
My tablet was on the floor though. I don't think it's going to still work. We'll see.
My whole room is gOing to forever stink though. It's never going to not sick of mildew now.
To top it all off I've had the best news i could even think of though.
HORMONE TREATMENT. I GOT APPROVED.
I'm going to London (Ontario) on November 25th to see Dr Martin. I've heard indirectly from another ftm that when i see him i pretty much leave with the T in my hand.
Guys. I'm so fucking excited. I can finally be who i was meant to be. You guys dint even know. Just the thought of this step never seemed achievable to me even just a few months ago. I can't fucking wait. And the girl who likes me is excited for it too. I think. She's been asking me about the changes that could happen and i pretty much told her everything but the dick - growing part. Lol.
Pretty much in my life so far has had it's ups and downs.
I'm trying to quit weed the best i can. It looks like life isn't going to let me do that.
Basically i found that in small, not regular doses it can help relieve my anxiety when I'm about to have a panic attack. Literally like if I'm just about to have a meltdown i can hit a toke and then just watch funny YouTube videos and go to bed.
The bad thing is that I've kind of formed a dependency, and I started smoking whenever my friends were, and then my friends we're just doing it all the time.
Basically, I am strictly saying that i will only smoke when i have to. I am fully aware that i cannot function while it is in my system even the day after. So i can't even hang out with my friends the nightbefore because my retard sister tthinks it's hilarious to blow it in my face even when i said i didn't want any. I really did a terrible job the next day at work so I think that's why my hours might have been a little cut.
Anyways. On the other hand.
A girl likes me? a GIRL likes me? a girl likes ME?
WHAT? It must be a trap.
She's really fucking hot though. I have no idea why she would be any way interested in my sorry ass. Maybe somewhere in my self loathing I ended up looking like a cool guy?
Too bad it was all a set up by my sister. She was so invasive she kept demanding to know if i was going to kiss her and shit. That's not how set up works, you introduce the people and leave it Ay that and hope for the best. It doesn't warrant you to invade my personal life.
On the other hand, My basement flooded. All my stuff including my furnature, My desks, My shelving i keep my art on, my box spring in my bed, My dresser, My computer and pretty much anything that's on the ground all has water damage. My computer was still on and running when i got home from work though, but it was in a 1 inch puddle, thank fucking god I bought a case that had 1 inch legs on it.
My tablet was on the floor though. I don't think it's going to still work. We'll see.
My whole room is gOing to forever stink though. It's never going to not sick of mildew now.
To top it all off I've had the best news i could even think of though.
HORMONE TREATMENT. I GOT APPROVED.
I'm going to London (Ontario) on November 25th to see Dr Martin. I've heard indirectly from another ftm that when i see him i pretty much leave with the T in my hand.
Guys. I'm so fucking excited. I can finally be who i was meant to be. You guys dint even know. Just the thought of this step never seemed achievable to me even just a few months ago. I can't fucking wait. And the girl who likes me is excited for it too. I think. She's been asking me about the changes that could happen and i pretty much told her everything but the dick - growing part. Lol.
As for the tablet. put that thing in rice to absorb the water and turn it on a few days later. Worked for me and my cell phone.
As for the Hormone treatment. Congrats! Is it all covered by the Ontario health care?
Me and her are fb official now :P
But I'm not sure about if it's covered